Just general work related comments

With this job or shift, you get home so late there's really nothing you can do or get into.

I really need a craft or hobby, something I can focus in on again...for a while, I was really into podcasting and broadcasting, but that passion has left me, as of now, once I found out, saw, how rigged the game is.

Talent has nothing to do with getting ahead anymore, it's who you know.
Most m/f's don't care how talented you are if not apart of their club.

Amazing how to long driving shifts in a row, can take more out of me, my moral, do more to destroy my happy spirit, than a day of drinking can when off.

About to check job schedule, am I on the schedule or not?

I told trucking company that I would not sign 'facial recognition' consent form, hell no.

F big tech, why do they need all my bio-metric info?

When in truck for 11 hour or more shifts, you go through many moods, moments, ect, that are private, why the F would I want tech geeks analyzing me private moments?

May as well just put a camera in my bedroom, if that's the case.
And they say it's for safety, BS!

Anyways, am I on the schedule or not, about to look....

(long pause)

Well what do ya know, I'm still on the schedule, I was kind of hoping I wasn't, cause already looking forward to getting new job, I need a change.

Oh well.

One of the most nerve racking things you can do is resign from a job before you've secured a new one...but sometimes you must, to force yourself to look.

I think I'm officially unemployed as of now, as of today.
I wasn't on the schedule, which is checked through a phone app.

Why?

Cause I refused to sign a facial recognition form, that would say it's OK for 3rd party to map my facial biometrics while driving...nope, not my, that's a line or bridge not willing to cross.

So what will I do now? Survive, that's what.
I may have some funds coming to me soon, and so will begin working on that process.
I want to buy some land, and a place, so that I can somewhat control my future going forward.
Rent is just getting too high now. What's the point of retiring if all your income goes up in rent?
In some places, rent alone can be $30,000 a year, do the math, that's 90 gran in 3 years of your retirement money.

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Anyways, it's a new day, just taking my time getting up, groomed and dressed.
Fate has this, me rushing or feeling anxious about stuff does nothing but age you.

I mean what do I do with the rest of my life, go a different path or get, yet again, just another dull, mundane trucking gig?



This is what I really want to do, go to film school, it's what I should of done a decade or more ago, if more focused and motivated and determined.

I need a job, a career, where going forward my creative talents are rewarded and appreciated and used.
In trucking, there is no need for creativity, you just obey the boss, the company, and watch dull, mindless training videos that you've seen for decades. There is no creative outlet in trucking, unless you're one of those custom truck types who likes to spend 10's of 1000's of dollars customizing your truck; but that's if you own it. If a company driver you cannot do that.

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Yes, I came into a little money recently, not a lot, just enough where can relax for a while, if I so chose...and is why I've been thinking so hard these last few weeks, cause I don't want to make the wrong decision like I have so many other times in my past.
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I mean yes, I've already applied for a staffing trucking job, which means you work on temporary assignments, ect....but haven't even looked at response yet, which means I'm torn on whether to go back to work immediately, or take some time off to think and explore other options.
I'm not old enough to retire, yet old enough to not want to just go work yet another mundane trucking job where you're never appreciated for all your years of service.

You have to love trucking in order to put up with all the hassles of it...the traffic, the mechanical breakdowns, the snarky shippers and receivers, who all treat you like a nobody, a dumb mindless nobody, as well as dispatch, they treat you like you're brainless as well.

What I really need is a RV = no lease or high rent = mobility and flexibility.
A RV and of course a tow behind vehicle or vehicles, maybe a midsized truck and a scooter, and pedal bike.

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My plan was to get some land, and just live on it, but cheap land means remote areas, which unless working from home means long commute to work or job.
I don't know...lot's to think about right now, cause I can't really say a new chapter has begun in my life until I actually do something completely different going forward...
Are there risks involved, yes...but the above film school seems really thorough and hands on...and that's where the last of my passion is, cause with whatever few years I have left on earth, if not doing what I love, than what exactly am I doing?

To be continued...