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Post by Admin on Oct 7, 2022 16:07:57 GMT
I came to a realization this week, this past week, that I really don't matter to anyone on this planet, as such I will change how I spend my money.
if I don't matter to others, in that if died in my place today, other than my employer, my body would lay in here and rot for years and years and years, cause I don't matter to anyone, which basically means I'm dead to them already.
How do you think that realization makes me feel?
Either way I'm not dead, I'm still here, and as long as here I do matter to self...as such will make decisions going forward based on mattering to self.
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Post by Admin on Oct 7, 2022 16:13:50 GMT
Going forward, I'll never pretend again, that I matter to others...cause I don't.
And that's OK
I just don't have time for small people anymore.
They may have very small hearts, but I don't.
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Post by Admin on Jul 1, 2023 14:38:20 GMT
In need to get up, get dressed, and move about this morning.
Just getting off 3 long shifts of work, like 15 hour + days, when you add in hours awake even before long work day...more like 18 hour + days.
So sure, I shouldn't feel guilty about laying around today, but I do need a few items from the store.
Home is safe, it's when you get up and out that the drama begins.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:53:10 GMT
I could really use some inspiration right now....other than myself.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:55:31 GMT
A few weeks I go I was certain I wanted to be a freight broker, then that evolved into something else, then that turned into me wanting to go back to college to learn math again, then I got side tracked again, and now I'm back to ground zero of being uninspired to do anything...🫤
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:58:51 GMT
When younger, a few decades ago or so, I use to love just going to airports and watching airplanes take off and land, that used to inspire me; not so much anymore though.  |
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Post by Admin on Sept 11, 2023 7:25:40 GMT
I could just quit my job and live rent free due to owned property...hmm
Ye, hmm...maybe soon, just maybe I will actually quit job, and live rent free, work part time, why not?
Due to property I inherited.
hmm.
We shall see, yes indeed, we shall see...cause all this work and be a slave stuff adds up to a pile of beans.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2023 22:49:47 GMT
Sometimes I feel so tired, and then realize still have so far to go  I'm tired, tired of losing, tired of making the wrong decisions in life, tired of being alienated from caring people, and instead cursed to have uncaring people in my life circle. I'm tired of drinking, and the after effects of, I'm tired of not being able to focus on stuff long enough to accomplish anything meaningful. I'm tired of always picking up after myself, I'm tired of my job, I'm tired of not being loved. I'm tired of a lot of things, tired of being poor, tired of not being able to help those few I still do care about. Tired of social medias bias, tired of political corruption, tired of cars, traffic, industrial noise. I'm just tired, yet still have a ways to go, whatever am I going to do??
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Keep on
Nov 10, 2023 3:17:27 GMT
via mobile
Post by Admin on Nov 10, 2023 3:17:27 GMT
Not sure if life will get much better for me going forward.
There's only like one person on this planet out of billions, who still cares about me, and when they're gone, not sure what I'll do.
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Keep on
Nov 10, 2023 3:20:52 GMT
via mobile
Post by Admin on Nov 10, 2023 3:20:52 GMT
Well, I'm here with them now, so will try to just focus on that.
My emotions are very frail right now, and is one reason why I won't drink...not while here anyways..
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Post by Admin on Dec 19, 2023 1:49:51 GMT
For the first time in years, I'm back on FB and twitter or 'X' at the same timeTwitter or X = twitter.com/glasssoles88And FB = www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61554578979579Everything's all mixed up and confuse, names, titles, ect. Heck, what do I care, how many years do I have left on this earth anyways? Probably not many, so as long as I get expressions, and thoughts out there, what do I care anymore. I have no friends anyhow, and basically no family, so what do I care now, what others, who think I'm already dead, care about me? I just don't anymore...I'm here for me now.
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Post by Admin on Jan 1, 2024 1:08:38 GMT
Be weary of those who use the smear and run tactic on you
Be weary of those who use the smear and run tactic on you.
You know, they smear your name, character, in front of others or behind your back, and then run away so you can't respond, or hang up the phone....such types are rotten to the core, manipulative monsters that fear the truth, cause the truth will knock them off their perch.
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Post by Admin on Jun 1, 2024 15:37:57 GMT
There's a part of me that says if I haven't made anything of my life by now, I never will, but then another part of me says I 'keep on'...
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Post by Admin on Jul 10, 2024 16:45:46 GMT
I've wasted a ton of time on two thing in the past
1. Drinking
2. The internet/social media
And now I'm trying to steer clear of both, the best I can.
I've got internet burnout, for real.
And social media...gag...so sick of the control games.
Social media has turned into the most bias medium out there.
At first, everyone given a fair share of views...but then the silicon valley snakes weaved their way in and started playing favorites, and after that social media has never been the same.
Most of those who post have been reduced to nothing more than babbling idiots, one line idiots, with no follow up, nothing...one and done comments.
And you read those comments while all your info being harvested by 3rd and 4th and 5th and 10 party 'partners'....
Sell your soul and privacy just to see yourself type a comment online...no thanks.
At least here it's quiet.
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Post by Admin on Jul 14, 2024 2:33:14 GMT
Assassination attempt on Trump, tonight, if haven't already heard
They almost took Trump out tonight...wow...I say 'they' cause of course I'm sure there were others behind the lone gunman....we shall see.
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