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Post by Admin on Oct 3, 2022 15:48:01 GMT
I don't know, maybe I'm ready, or I think I'm ready to be crazy, cause only then does it seem you get the respect of others around you.
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Post by Admin on May 13, 2023 1:00:14 GMT
Do you just ever get a feeling in your gut, your being, that you shouldn't be some place?
Here's what my gut is telling me right now.
'Get out'...that's the feeling I have in my gut right now, as if I should still be here, where I'm at.
Am I wrong?
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Post by Admin on May 13, 2023 1:45:16 GMT
You just get to a point in your life where you don't really trust no one or anything other than your gut.
And I think my gut is telling me that I just need to up and move, 'get out', as video says, and just go anywhere but here, even if have to stay at a hotel for a month until get employed.
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Post by Admin on Aug 14, 2023 11:17:57 GMT
This episode of 'sadness' in my life is by far the biggest challenge I've had in years.
Everything else I can face in life, as long as my mind is strong, and can spin things to my favor.
But if lose the ability to convince self that things will be OK, well then that truly does become issue.
For so goes the mind, so goes the body.
Like a boxer stepping into the ring, that boxer can be physically fit and better than his opponent, but if that boxers mind is shot, it doesn't matter.
Cause if their mind is shot, they, the boxer, won't perform up to their ability, and a lesser opponent will be able to defeat them.
Well, in real life that opponent is reality, and every day hurdles we must face.
I have to keep my mind strong if I have a chance in this world anymore.
Our minds tend to help us bend reality to our favor, that's the power of the mind.
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Post by Admin on Aug 14, 2023 11:25:06 GMT
And by me writing, I'm basically telling myself what others should be or would be telling me if I had friends or family, but I really don't, so I have to tell myself these things instead.
Hey, whatever works, whatever gets you through the day.
But know this, people are or can be very rotten...the world isn't rotten, but many of the people in it certainly are.
They will whisper and lie about you, and spread their untruths about you through back rooms, and they aren't interested in substantuating information.
Dark souled creatures are dark souled for a reason.
Will types like that ever receive or get justice dished out to them?
Who knows.
And I don't like people who hide.
The best joys I have in life is finally meeting a liar face to face, the look in their demonic coward eyes, will, that in itself is a reward, and eventually everyone slips, everyone talks, and someone in that gigantic lie chain finally has a conscious and will say 'enough'.
Kind of like a whistle blower, but in a social setting instead.
And I can't wait for that whistle blower to finally step up and tell me the truth one day.
Just thinking of that moment does make me happy, cause then I'll be validated.
But then again, evil people don't care about the truth, or they wouldn't be evil to bein with.
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Post by pull88 on Sept 22, 2024 3:29:28 GMT
It's a weird phychological feeling when in your mind, you're not sure where you'll be living in a few months.
Or that you could go from a normal heated apartment to a RV or used motor home living life on the edge, again.
And to have to do it all a long makes it all the more hard or intimidating.
It's amazing how just having 1 solid friend in your life can add so much more courage to how you face your future.
Most, really have no idea what it's like being a lone...especially women, who always have their kids in their life, grown or not.
But when don't have kids, older, and no other family you talk to, or even friends...that's being alone.
When you can die, and no one would know you're dead until say rent was due, that's when you know you're alone.
But let's say you died somewhere other than an apartment, like in a motor home on some abandoned road, or in a tent, or wherever...
You're alone when no one would even care or ask about you until the coronor found your body or bones.
Anyways, let me stop, I'm starting to depress myself writing like that.
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2024 1:06:46 GMT
It's Friday night, and I feel very relaxed right now, for some reason It's Friday night, around 9 pm, and I feel very relaxed right now for some reason. Is there ever really a reason to feel relaxed anymore? Well, right now I do, and not sure how long it'll last. Haven't worked in a while, not sure what tomorrow will bring, but there's still something always soothing about the first hours of the weekend when all the business vipers are asleep. I know today, everything is 24/7, but still the weekends, mainly Friday and Saturday, just feel like a safety zone from it all. Stuff you can put off until Monday when the dreaded machine reawakens. But as of now, this moment, I still feel calm. But like most, my mood or moods can change on a dime, for the better or worse, usually for the worst. Sometimes just what you eat can change your mood in a good or bad way. Bad food with toxic chemicals, can bring you down, good healthy food can bring you up. No booze in my system, that's one reason I feel so calm, without booze in my system, body is better able to absorb nutrients that effect our moods. Anyways, since not drinking, I'll be able to get more done this night than I normally would if had drank earlier. I think should the day come, the season come, when I stop drinking, like could be like heaven for me. I realize now heaven comes from within, cause when in the right calm mood and have the right outlook, you can tolerate just about anything. And it helps if your environment is quiet so you can relax. It's Friday, Nov 1st of 2024
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