A very long Journey since leaving Pullman

Feel like I'm in that Hypercube movie, here's why



In the sci-fi movie 'Hypercube', a group of people wake up inside of some kind of cube complex, one large cube made up of many smaller ones, like the rubics cube.
And each cube has like it's own interdimensional reality.

Bottom line to all the Cube movies is that if you didn't keep on moving, time would catch you.

Hard to explain unless you've watched the movies.

Well I often compare real life to that cube, mainly the second one 'Hypercube', in that if stayed in one cube to long, the room would begin to dissolve, evaporate, melt into infinity.

And so I feel like I'm inside that large cube complex, and I've stayed to long in one spot, metaphorically speaking, but also in real life, it's like I've just literally stayed in one spot to long, and as such a lot of my enthusiasm for stuff has just stalled.

But in the movie, if didn't keep moving, that meant doom, and in real life, maybe it does as well, but doom can come in many different forms.

I use to always say 'If you stand still to long, hell will catch you'.

Not sure if what's happening to me is that extreme, but boredom can indeed be hell like.

And lately I've just been really bored, feel really flat on the inside, but like in the movie I go from cube room to another, or phase in life, and each cube interior presents a unique challenge, but when that challenge is met, you have to move on or like in the movie, your space will begin to dissolve.

Is my space beginning to dissolve?
I don't know, and if so, what can I do about it?

Life is simply theater, anyone who tells you differently is adrift in nothing



Life is theater, at least on the human level.

Sometimes I think i'm more Asian than 'black'.

Paid rent late last night online, and it was the grosses feeling, rent is evil in my opinion.

Rent is evil, that has been normalized, but it's evil, and robs millions of future retirment funds.

What's odd is when I close my eyes, so many times my brain has me feeling like I'm still in the house I grew up in in Albion, Wa, I wonder if that means I should move back out there?

But there's nothing out there for me now, all the people I use to know have long since moved on.

to be honest with you, I don't think I have a home on this earth anymore, other than past memories in my mind.

But you never know...life is only exiting and worth living if you make it so.

I was on the radio today, as in am celestial radio, but the station I was on, I don't know, their audio not so good, not sure if the people there know what they're doing.