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Post by Admin on Aug 14, 2023 10:46:30 GMT
The ultimate health is happiness
The ultimate healthy vitamin is happiness, I know this, many know this, but happiness is not really something you can fake, cause so many
other reality based scenerios are connected to it.
Hope, hoping in the future, your own future, is a big part of that equation.
And hope is kind of one of those things you have to convince yourself of. Hope is a mindset, a belief that things will get better and work out for the better.
It's when you lose that hope, that sadness can set in.
Why do we lose hope?
Who knows.
I can be an accumilation of events, or one major event, or combo of them both.
Or sometimes we can lose hope when just don't have others in our lives to encourage us on anymore.
A lack of relationships can really help diminish hope in our lives.
Take for example disasters that happen, people lose everything, but notice even when they've lost everything they still have hope, why? Cause they usually have friends or family around them giving them that hope.
Hardship is not the toughest thing to get through in life, it's going through hardship alone, that's a moral killer.
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And one thing for me is I don't have friends or family, or anyone, giving me hope anymore.
For years I gave it to myself, self sustained optimism that things would work out, that I had the ability to generate or create whatever outcome I so desired, but as of late, not so sure anymore, as such, sadness has begin to creep in a bit. Then add the depressing news to that, the crime wave, millions of illegal alienss who you cannot connect with do to language and cultural and ethnic differences, and one can really begin to feel isolated.
'Hope' is kind of a potion, a magic potion, that helps us ride through the bad times, but without that 'hope potion', everything begins to weight heavy on your soul
I need hope again.
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Post by Admin on Aug 15, 2023 15:06:16 GMT
Right now everything and everyone feels meaningless to me, I think I'll go do some shopping to refresh the mind.
When you're alone and isolated for days at a time, your thoughts, mood, tend to take you places you wouldn't go if around others and loved.
None the less, I'll get up, get dressed, and go about the day with a good face, at least while out in public, as we all do, even you.
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Post by Admin on Aug 16, 2023 14:49:38 GMT
Ahh, just got back from shopping at two place, went out while still some what cool out, before the Venus like heat sets in.
I'm off today, gotta work tomorrow, darn.
I dread my job, cause no matter how good you look, no one notices, I mean who doesn't want to be noticed and appreciated?, who?
Anyways, I'm sober, and have full day and night in front of me, Oh what shall I do?
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Post by Admin on Aug 21, 2023 3:45:32 GMT
Not really sure how much I like my past anymore.
I don't think, in fact I know, no one from my past even gives a crap about me, not then, or now.
But it is my past, you can't just invent a fake past.
I think life stopped being interesting for me about 5 years ago or so.
But it could get interesting again, soon.
Situations are always changing, and we must change to adapt to them or perish.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:23:48 GMT
It's a new day and I don't know what to do with it.
The mind is a fragile part of the body, and is why you have to guard your mind well.
You can't just let anything into your mind, or your mind will turn to mush.
And you cannot overload your mind with other peoples BS, or again, your mind will turn into mush.
My problem is I tried taking on to much, and as such, my mind has just stopped working, lol, in the sense that now all I want to do is sit, be still, and recalibrate my mind to a way that suites my own interest.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:30:34 GMT
I need to get out of this place for a bit, and see something wonderful, but in this area, I can't think of anything wonderful to see.
I haven't been to the beach in years, and if go to public beach, parking is always a issue, have to pay, or park a mile away from the beach, it's a mess, so screw that.
Downtown?
Well, all that's down there is homeless folks, and or stiff walking stoic corporate types carrying briefcases.
Sometimes I go shopping, food shopping, to ease the mind, but that can be a hit or miss experience.
I'm restless, but really not inspired to go anywhere or do anything in the brick and mortar world.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:33:39 GMT
A nice walk or bike ride would be fun, but here it's so hot that the heat distracts from enjoying the bike ride or walking.
I think commercialism is so overrated. I think the West has ruined the Americas...
The new settlers, with thier bibles, thought they were bringing gods will to the Americas, ye right, all they brought was racism and the destruction of ancient ways, and pollution, nuclear weapons, commercialism, porno, broken families, and a tyrannical administrative state.
Now look at the Americas?
Drugs, homelessness, crime...ye sure, this is what god wanted...wow.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 14:38:22 GMT
I need money, but only cause, sadly, in this world, it's money that can buy you freedom from the hellish environment you're in.
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Post by Admin on Sept 5, 2023 20:27:23 GMT
In a very odd mood, as of late. I think one of my younger female cousins passed away yesterday, but it's been so long since I've seen them, I'm not really all that touched by their passing, no more or less than anyone else's passing. That aside, I'm just in a odd mood, sometimes I don't even know who I am anymore or what I expect to get out of life anymore, other than waking up and going to a job I absolutely hate now. I just hope there's still some sunshine left in and for my future.  |
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Post by Admin on Sept 9, 2023 13:39:39 GMT
Some times I feel like my whole adult life can be summed up as me always getting dressed up, just to end up walking around pigs.
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Post by Admin on Sept 10, 2023 3:20:03 GMT
Just got in, no time to get into anything other than to lay back, and watch some TV, or now 'streaming' shows.
Been on a twilight zone binge the last few weeks.
What an amazing show, you can just about find bits and pieces of your own life in each and every episode.
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Post by Admin on Sept 17, 2023 15:31:26 GMT
What a touching video, of black motorcycle riders making a trip to Sturgis, South Dakota
When I use to drive Semis OTR, I was also able to see how vast and geographically beautiful this nation is.
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Post by Admin on Sept 18, 2023 20:27:15 GMT
I feel like hell is coming for us all, no matter how much we prepare for it not to happen
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Post by Admin on Sept 27, 2023 22:58:47 GMT
It's weird, the last two times I've rented a vehicle to go somewhere that involved so called family, it either rained the whole time or partially...basically the sky's were grey the whole time, no or very little sunshine.
Is there something symbolic of that that I need to take note of?
Renting nice cars are supposed to be a fun event, but I notice when rented cars for specific purpose of dealing with family matters, the weather was terrible.
What does 'blood' mean after a certain point in life?
Maybe your own 'blood' isn't always good for you, I mean people drift, fall under the control of different spirits, ect.
Maybe now, I realize, I don't need those people as much as I used to think I did.
Maybe fate has kept me isolated from them, from monsters, for a reason...hmm.
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Post by Admin on Sept 27, 2023 23:07:45 GMT
As I get older, I just realize there's so much crap we just don't need in our lives.
The only person I can really convince of that is me, myself and I.
I really don't need nothing, other than to wake up and live....I suppose.
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