Thursdays come and go

I was off today, had all day to get all sorts of things done, but amazing how little I actually end up getting done, that thought I could or would if had the day off.

Instead, seems I get bogged down in one or two things, and that's about it, not sure where the time goes, but it goes, then next thing I know I'm waking up for work the next day and already wishing I had the day off again.

Time just keeps scooting us right along whether we like it or not.
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Nothing really stands out today, other than straightened living room up from stuff tried selling at the flea market last Sunday, used shoes do not do well at the flea market.

People who shop at flea markets aren't like desperate hobo types.
Used shoes usually appeal to a niche market of buyers, people with like a used shoe fetish or something, and you reach people like that online, like some kind of online used shoe store, then you can charge more cause it's specifically what they're looking for.

And you gotta be patient as a seller at a flea market, you may sit there all day and only get a few sales, if that.
It helps to be a talker.
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Had some KFC today, went to Pep boys to price out a new clutch, and well, that's about it, just a below the radar type of a day, like most of my existance.

It's amazing how one long shift can totally seperate you from how you felt, the mindset you were in, before going to work, say coming off of your weekend.

Just one long mindless shift of work can like empty you out on the inside, at least with what I do.

I mean if employed in a office or something, working around others you get along with, laughing, joking, flirting, than work isn't so bad.
But when work alone all day, in or on a machine, work can have a different phycological effect on your mind and body.

I'm just grateful I only got to do it 3 times a week or I'd of quit long ago.

I'm the type that will quit a job in a heartbeat if job no longer works for me. I'm usually 2-5 or more up on rent anyways, usually.

I never trap myself by being broke, but lately I've been spending a lot of self.

Well I'm home now, so what, soon will have to go to bed and work again tomorrow, yuk.
It's Thursday, bland Thursday.

Thursdays come and go



Week night's are just weird for me.

I have a job that works you long hours, but then off for more days than most, but here's the thing, its awkward when get home and only have like 2 hours max, to wind down and get into anything before bedding down, at least as a single person.

I think the dynamics of life are totally different when paired or married, or even if have a best friend/roommate type of a situation

I just think time is easier to fill when you have relationships in your life, be it marriage, lovers, or best friends, but when single, and alone, it's different.

when you get home you have no kids running up to you saying 'Welcome home Dad', you have no wife there to coddle, or no roommate there to discuss the days events with...you just come home and there's nothing, no one, and so time effects you differently.

I think if I had someone living with me that I loved, I don't think I've ever feel bored when I got in from work...it helps when you're not always focused on self, as you do when single...but that's just where fate has me right now so have to deal with it.

It's Thursday...Thursdays are such uneventful days for the most part, it's just like a place marker day until Friday arrives.

It's Thursday, now what?
I'm off, and already bored.
I drank last night, which kind of screwed up my mood a bit.

I really just need to delete all numbers in my phone, so that when I do drink, I don't call people and make a utter fool out of myself

Yep, that's what I need to do, delete all numbers from my phone other than job related numbers.

I just got in from work and feel, ahh, miserable, no other way to put it.
Some of it has to do with 'health', in that I get nerve pain from time to time, and so it just makes work miserable, but it usually goes away when I make other adjustments to my life, mainly to stop drinking.
I think drinking as you age causes a whole slew of other issues.

I mean I guess it's OK to drink maybe once or twice a month, but who can stop with that?

When you drink, you have fun, you let lose, so who only wants to have fun and let lose once a month?

So I guess the key is learning how to have fun and let lose while sober.

Anyways, it's Thursday, worked today, have to work tomorrow, just another bland day that if didn't write about it, would never be remembered.

I worked today, yuk, is how the whole day felt, but home now, have a few hours to do whatever.
I hate that after work 'yuk' feeling, when sure you're off, but the previous days shift just like scrubs all your energy or enthusiasm away, at least for me.
Some people do actually love their jobs, or work in a office, around splendid people, so maybe those types come home feeling charged, and maybe they come home to a wife, their loving kids, a dog, cat, a house full of personality.

I can only wonder what that would be like.

Thursdays are boring as a mo ho.
Today's like my Monday though also, and my Friday is Saturday.

Either way it's a dull Thursday, and I just got in from a dull boring job to boot.
No drinking tonight, no getting wild, all I can do is sit around and agonize that it's Thursday evening, and life feels a bit sucky right now..