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Post by Admin on Apr 13, 2020 1:40:21 GMT
When alone
When alone
Posts to follow that explore that realm
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Post by Admin on Apr 13, 2020 1:51:40 GMT
When alone, reality is different to said person who is alone
When alone, reality is different to the one who is alone, than to others.
1. When alone, there is no God or Satan, (or anything in between) just self, and if God or Satan exists, they're elements within own biochemical make up, within own brain or personality, but not external.
2. When alone, there is no love or hate, or anything in between, rather just life sustaining bodiley functions, most of which are automated.
3. When alone there is no hug, hugging, nothing, just 'air', or furniture that touches you when you sit down on it, thus you know you're alive cause you can 'feel' the fabric.
4. When alone, crying doesn't matter, cause no one hears, kind of like a try falling in a forest, if no ones there, it really never happened.
Many cry anyways, when alone, cause early own they feel 'god' must be listening, watching, and surely 'god' will respond to 'my crying', like parents do to baby in a crib.
But after time, one learns unless another human responds, there's nothing there, nothing (excluding pets who have no say in society)
5. The most evil people in the world, are NOT alone, but rather surrounded by many, either out of fear, or money or whatever, in that even evil people fear being alone and so will do whatever to keep people around them, they'll lie, manipulate whatever, and it seems to work.
But if 'good', and alone, none of those tactics are deployed, and instead just accept the fact that 'I'm alone'.
And if always alone, than most importantly, one should question the type of people around them, who are perfectly OK with 'them' being alone.
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Post by Admin on Mar 9, 2021 17:37:24 GMT
When people ignore you it means they want you to 'die', but I also see the good side of being alone, and that would be you tend to make more rational decisions and not have to go through the soul straining emotional highs and lows of being in a relationship or relationships.
There is no low lower than when in a relationship and either you get in a argument, or feel 'they' let you down, or if male/female relationship, no worse feeling than jealousy, and finding out for real that your partner cheated on you, no worse feeling in the world.
Being attached to another or others emotionally can be both a blessing and a curse, when things are good, there's no better high, but when things go south, there no more intense 'low'.
When in relationships you tend to do things just to prove you can, ego gets involved, the whole 'show off' thing, but when alone, you have no one to prove anything to or for, so tend to live a safer quieter life.
Is why all violence in cities and rural areas tend to evolve around domestic issues (relationships), and or street issues, again relationships but on different level.
People not in any kind of relationship rarely have encounters with the law, cause again, when alone there's no one to fight with or to make upset, there for things tend to be more peaceful.
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Post by Admin on Jul 19, 2022 2:32:20 GMT
Your own life will destroy you.
Come get me...if can.
I'm a ghost.
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Post by Admin on Oct 7, 2022 18:27:04 GMT
There's going to be some changes to my life come Monday...a mental turn around of sorts.
It's easy to slowly destroy yourself when alone, if feel alone, especially around the holidays.
I can't allow that to happen, cause it's what people who have forgotten about me all but want.
Nothing more than they'd love than for me to re-emerge as some broken soul, in need of whatever...not happening.
Already doing better than most, but still, emotions can make us harm self with destructive habits if not careful.
And sure, I drink at times, but not as much as others...but I can't compare myself to others.
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So how will things change on Monday?
I'll simply stop caring that others don't care, and won't pretend they do, that way when they don't, I won't react.
I'll stop expecting from others what they don't have for me, and that is unconditional care, worry and concern.
I realize now there's no such thing, at least not towards me.
I'm here for a little while longer, and so the world will just have to deal with it I suppose.
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Post by Admin on Mar 15, 2023 4:55:09 GMT
Is it better to have it rough, yet not be alone, as in have family, friends, ect?
Or is it better to be alone and relatively safe, yet have no one to confide in?
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Post by Admin on Jun 9, 2023 1:44:00 GMT
I felt like I came home to hell today. When alone, it's easy to feel that way at times. Sometimes silence can be bliss, other times the lack of noise, noisy affection, can be like hell. To not matter to no one, is also a form of living hell.  |
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2023 7:56:50 GMT
I'm pretty much out of food and time I'm pretty much out of food, time and luck. Life, for most of us, just sucks. We have moments, maybe even seasons of blissfulness that are surrounded by bad weather, doom and gloom. For a while there, we think we're all special, unique, but then life circumstances tells us otherwise. Just depends on fate, I suppose. If fate is on your side, than you cannot lose, but if fate is against you, forget about it. Anyways, time is catching me. I hate time, I hate the future, I hate tomorrow, I hate next week. I wish I had something, someone, stronger than myself to lean on.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2023 8:23:58 GMT
I wish I could find a scary movie to watch....anything, just to rescue me from my own horrific reality  I wish I could find a scary movie to watch, anything, just to rescue me from my own horrific reality of uncertainty and nervousness about life, tomorrow and the future. -------------------------------- I'm a tweeb, I'm not as strong, on the inside, as people probably think I am, and so it's with, or through my art, that I show my weakness and vulnerabilities. I'm scared, just like everyone else, but who cares right.
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Post by Admin on Dec 9, 2023 13:27:06 GMT
I try to look at what makes other people happy, and here's what I observe
1. Family
2. Projects, hobbies, side interests
3. Friends
4. Money, not ever having the feeling of being broke or not being able to pay bills, and being able to move to whatever location you desire
Unhappy people tend to be fiscally trapped, and forced to live in areas around dampy, hoodlum types, who offer no inspiration at all what so ever.
5. Also, health, usually happy people are in good or decent health.
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Post by Admin on Dec 9, 2023 13:29:32 GMT
I wonder if there's a way I could engineer my way back to happiness?
Of course there is, the key though, is having the moral and motivation and focus/determination to do so.
And that can be easier said than done.
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Post by Admin on Jan 30, 2024 16:05:40 GMT
It's Tuesday It's Tuesday, and I'm not gonna lie, I feel like utter crap right now. My mood is off, my bodies chemistry, or physiological balance feels off as well. And on top of that parts of my body aches...I'm just a mess today. And it's probably only going to get worse, phycologically and even fiscally, and in other ways. Also, I have no one to lean on for comfort, not a soul, yet still trying to do the right thing for 'devils'. I've learned this, and that is you cannot ever please devils, ever. Devils hate you unconditionally. You'll go broke trying to please devils, and then what? As I sit here typing this, at this moment, I just feel doomed. Next week, I have to go somewhere I don't want to go, but when drunk/drinking, I booked a ticket out of impulse. The devil is also in the 'bottle', and then gets ahold of your mind and makes you do stupid things you later regret. Right now, I have no answers or solutions, other than to try to reclaim my body, my health, my mind and my spirit, cause that's my only defense in this world. Health is everything, without health, and not being loved, than one may as well just roll over and die. But I'm to healthy to roll over and die, so until then will continue to get tormented by this world, my world, and those I was cursed to be born around.
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Post by Admin on Feb 26, 2024 2:12:00 GMT
The only thing that can save you, rip you from your bad habits, as in drinking, ect, is a schedule of productivity.
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