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Post by Admin on Jul 5, 2020 9:15:40 GMT
The female classmates I grew up having 'crushes' on Oh ye, in this section will share the female classmates I grew up having 'crushes' on, women, at the time 'girls', who I was in 'awe' over for one reason or another, after all they were my classmates at the time. Even they, or my memories of them need to be shared. Stay tuned.
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Post by Admin on Jul 5, 2020 9:18:34 GMT
98% of what follows is from pure memory, and that should demonstrate to you how powerful 'Love' is, or the past.
Never think that the past doesn't matter to people, for the past is the only foundation 'we', you, I, have in this world, good or bad, it's our foundation, and never goes away.
If a trained psychologist you should know this or I'll come snatch your licence away from you.
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Post by Admin on Jul 5, 2020 10:59:39 GMT
K-12 female classmates that I had a crush on, during various stages of youth in Pullman, WA
This is just a quick list, a sticky pad, per say, before I forget, then posts that follow this one will go into detail about each, well not so much them, but how they effected me.
In no particular order, just jotting down before I forget.
1. Norra?, a gal from Norway, probably first time ever been treated so nice, they were a exchange student, and to this day remember that their Father was into 'stone polishing'...1st grade??
2. Tami S, wow, she lived across the street from us for a while before moving to Spokane, WA, a lot more on that whole family later, they were like the Brady Bunch for sure, even had similar station wagon, they're a whole memory within themselves.
3. Julie F, hot babe she was, a bit plump, but she fit her plumpness very well, this was about high school years, she dated a guy named Louie, for a long while.
4. Kathy B, long story on that one, a nerdy gal I first fell for like in the 4th grade at Jefferson elementary school, and the crush still kind of exists even today, even though many tried to ruin our relationship (whole complete side story which will be told on here, for the truth needs to come out)
5. Holly B, another elementary love of mine, like 5th grade at Jefferson elementary, she ended up moving to the Tri Cities area, I think. She really fell for me and my humor, but later as my social status shrunk, her friends turned her against me, and looking back can only imagine the awful things they told her, and mind you this is K-12 years.. Holly B, often reminded me of the guys wife on the TV show 'Welcome Back Kotter', and I think we even played around with that notion.
6. Stacy S, she was like the 'barron' of all the girls, the older 'bad girl', but oh so ever sexy and always teasing, I never had a chance in H-ll with her, but she was like a 'lust magnet' for many of us guys...her older brother 'Billy' was a cool outlaw country boy type.
7. Terra H, wow, cute cute cute, her brother Tie or Tye H, they lived right around the corner from us, Moved up from Utah I do believe, again Tye H, her brother is the real story which we'll cover later, but Terra was so hot, cute and innocent and most of all so very kind.
8. Shannon L, think of Chrisie Snow from 3's Company, what a darling she was (Albion, WA years, more on Albion years later)...gals like Shannon are what reminded us guys we were guys at the time. She was hot, kind hearted and gentle, and still even remember her Mother with the black Curly hair, they lived in a mobile home.
9. Dedra M, older, but still developed light crush on her after seeing her barefoot one summer day walking up to friends house, cool classy babe, her Father was into restoring classic cars, and he was Principle of schools there for a while, more on them later.
10. Jennifer S, beautiful gal she was, but she was the sister of one of my best friends at the time, Yes, I know, you're not suppose to have crushes on your friends sisters, but it happens all the time when younger, don't play innocent here.(much more on the whole Stepens family to follow)
11. Wes C's sister, dang, I forget her name, I totally fell for this hot rod outlaw babe from Chicago, again, she was the older sister of best friend at the time, they lived in Albion, WA for a while (lots of back story to this when get to it later on)
12. Shawn G, also had a hot sister, who lived just below Ricky S house, we were all kind of friends, and Shawn G's father had weight room he allowed us youth to use, more on that later.
13. Leslie something, I forget, 6 grade crush, she was top of line 'cool crowd' chick, but I had such a crush on her she finally caved in, we exchanged a few notes, then relationship was over, I think she just did it to prove that I was to young and dumb to know how to manage a relationship, and looking back she was right...Leslie B, yep that it, she has a naturally golden curly perm, and beautiful golden tan skin.
14. Mike B's sister, I fell for her badly, right before she moved away, and again ---- B's sister, I forget her name, was the sister of best friend at the time and Asian.
15. Belinda C, hot dirty and wicked, I've known here since like 1st grade, I never stood a chance with her, but she's one blonde that still stands out to this day.
Anyways, that's top 15 I can remember right off top of head, and mind you I've had no contact with any of them for decades...but yet there they are, still in my mind, my memories, my past, you can't erase your past, for if past goes, you forget who you are.
Other female classmates stood out to me also, but did not have crush on them, they just stood out cause they were 'solid'.
Kim S, is one, Meagan P (Red Head), is another, and Dena something *she moved away early, like in the 1st grade or something, but to this day totally remember how kind she was and here stringy white/blonde hair.
Again, just laying down the names now as way of prepping, so as not to forget, and in future posts will come back and examine how each effected my life in a more personal way.
To be continued.
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Post by Admin on Jul 5, 2020 11:17:32 GMT
Sad thing is, is that I was a 'Late bloomer', I wasn't comfortable with self until well after high school I was a late bloomer type, so most of these women remember me more as a outcast geek type who was struggling to find an identity at the time. One of the reasons I was socially side lined is cause Father didn't allow me to play sports, I mean sports is how guys grow a pair when in school, is how guys earn their stripes and respect, and my Father denied me that role or opportunity, and still angry at them at times for doing so. But ye, I bloomed later on, after high school, in fact image you see above is only a few years old, so I've held my own pretty good. I mean we all get old, fade, get sick, injured ext, but all that aside, I've lived a pretty safe life since high school years, no illness, sickness, nothing, just the usual stuff that comes with ageing. Anyways, just thought I'd throw this post in before I continue later on, just to give going forward a bit of 'context'. Either way, I'm past my prime, gosh darn it..lol.
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2020 23:08:34 GMT
To the female classmates I grew up around To the female classmates I grew up around, I know you all are older now. I remember you all as being pretty darn fine. I need a classmate from the past to go to Prom with...I never went to the prom... Just a pipe dream of mine, one of many I doubt will ever come true, but still fun to think about sometimes.
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2020 23:29:09 GMT
Can I finally say this now?
'F' your dad, Kathy B, they were wrong about me, I would of made your perfect husband.
And Shannon L, you had the perfect feet, so did you Stacy Stone, but your sister Judy and Tie H, well, that's for another section.
Kelly H, your Brother Jeff H, was a jerk, a racist insecure jerk, I hope they've matured...
And the Laplants...all of them, cool as hell, outlaws of Pullman, who always treated me kindly!
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2020 23:32:21 GMT
Hell, I even remember Mr Hooper, the large eared plumber from City view st, when a kid, he'd come over to house to fix plumbing issues, and me and my sister would awe or laugh over his oversized ears...bless his soul...I'm sure he's now long and gone now, but on here, this platform, he lives!
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2020 23:34:47 GMT
Yasmine Gay, and that other gal who had crush on me, during the break dancing years..forget her name, I so took her for granted though...one of my main regrets in life to this day, is the fact that I took people, back then, who actually liked me, for granted.
If I could go back in time, things would be so different.
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Post by Admin on Nov 18, 2020 0:29:58 GMT
Kathy Ballw_g, oh what a gal!, my dream gal, to this day wish I could marry her! This song, for whatever reason, reminds me of 'forever' at Jefferson elementary school, those, or that snowy winter, yet sun so bright, as we all would sled down that one side hill on tubes. Bob Mart_n being the most crazed of them all. I miss you Kathy B, sorry things didn't work out... Sure I'm a bit 'nuts', we all are, then we die and are no more. It's why it's important to 'matter' and 'express' self while alive. Cute babe you.
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Post by Admin on Nov 18, 2020 0:38:38 GMT
What the hell you looking at Mike M-tch, I know eventually you'll find this site and you'll be like 'what', huh? My odd paranormal side kick.
You and that green Duster car, me you and Ted in Moscow and my pet dog and that bottle rocket that went off inside vehicle, one of the most funniest best times in my life, still think and laugh over that to this day.
Bless 'Lucky', the German Shepard dog that was so loyal to me during my final years in Pullman...I so miss that dog.
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Post by Admin on Nov 18, 2020 0:41:25 GMT
And Julian M-tthew's, you were in one of my dreams last night, the cool 'b' dude from England who was like the 'Prince' of Pullman, all the girls loved and adored him.
What a guy...hope your doing well, anyways, let me stop, this section is for the female babes I had crushes on, like Shannon L feet.
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Post by Admin on Nov 18, 2020 0:50:09 GMT
IN about another month or less or so, I will start sending this site out to publications in hopes of them helping me reunite with my old classmates from Pullman, including Oprah Wimphrey, I could use her help...lol Hey Oprah, help me reunite with my former classmates, please...thanks. And yes, I created that image of you above, or I should say I enhanced it....
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Post by Admin on Nov 18, 2020 1:11:51 GMT
Here's a better version Oprah W Please help me find my lost classmates before time takes us all. I miss a lot of them, sure, some were 'nasty', just had nasty rotten attitudes, but life matures, life matures. Me, still curious, and still the Charlie Brown on Halloween who always gets a 'rock' when trick or treating, yes that's me, the one who always gets a rock in the bag. Oh well, I'm still here. Live long, be strong, and help others when you can..later. And that Kathy Deisler gal who lived next to me in Albion, WA, I had crush on her for a while to, will never forget that summer when Kathy D, and Mooney something, we were out by the creek, the water, and they made it seem as if I were their "king'...to this day I wonder if they were playing around with me or for real, either way, my grouchy Dad called me inside just when things were getting interesting. Oh well...just my luck, as usual a bag full of rocks.
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Post by Admin on Mar 29, 2022 20:57:23 GMT
Sometimes I wonder what would of happened if I returned to that area and married one of the classmates I grew up around.
I wasn't very popular though when there, I just wasn't considered cool, and was very insecure to add to it.
I was struggling to find my identity.
I wasn't cool enough to be black, yet obviously wasn't white, I was just 'me'.
But during school years you can't just be 'you', you have to have an identity, and I really didn't have one.
Most of the girls were OK with the blacks or minorities who came from out of town, who were like from the city, cause they were 'cool'.
But me, I wasn't considered cool at all, at least not by my classmates. I was like an outcast, and actually my last year of high school was one of the lonliest years of my life.
Only attended one high school dance, and my so called hang out buddies screwed that up for me by prank calling my date, which was Kathy B.
I had no idea what happened, it was the best night of my life, and then after the dance I called, and she'd no longer talk to me.
That really broke my heart. It was only later that I found out it was Carlos and Steve L, are the ones who pranked Kathy B. And since her father was already against interacial dating (I guess), I'm sure he was the one that convinced her it was me.
I'm sure he was like 'See, see I told you 'they're' like that'..ect.
I just wish Kathy B had given me the benefit of the doubt instead of assuming I'd prank her after the best night of my life up to that point.
I was robbed of a life long relationship with my childhood sweetheart.
So don't tell me about god and justice, cause justice doesn't always prevail.
Anyways, I haven't spoken to any of them in decades.
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Post by Admin on Mar 29, 2022 21:11:33 GMT
And I don't like dating sites, I don't like the meat market feel to dating sites. I just don't like the premise of how dating sites are set up. They always want your picture, they, women/men always base everything on that picture. And sites don't want you to alter you pic or anything, so you're basically sending in a morning bare face of self. Well unless really young, most people do need to enhance photo a bit. And I hate being asked these questions 1. What's your age 2. What do you do for a living? Screw what I do for a living, it's what I inspire to become, the job I have that pays my bills in no way shape or form represents 'me', it's just a job. Sure, some are lucky to have a wonderful career field, I do not, I've totally lost interest in logistics, so to me it's just a job, it's when I'm away from that job that I do what I love. And then just other 'meat market' type of questions that seem to one dimensional. (phones ringing right now, I won't answer unless right next to me, no one every brings me any positive life changing news anyways) Also, the kind of woman I like I just don't think can be found on a dating site, to be honest with you. And if so, the odds of them liking me back are even lesser. And because of my color designation (another meat market check mark I hate about dating sites), I'm often paired with people I have nothing in common with. I'm not some southern raised, dark skinned, plantation type of black person or person of color....I'm more like a Jimi Hendrix type. I'm a person of color who was raised around rockers and punk rocks and hicks and hippy types, so why the hell would a dating site try to pair me with some more southern traditional acting negro from Georgia? No, its not happening, I'd rather almost get with a slender, light skinned fem transgender male than some bloated back woods 'B' female from the swamps, with hands and feet larger than my own. I've always been a colorful soul, but many so called black folks are anything but that, sure, creative within own 'genre' of art and sound, but my creativity knows no cultural bounderies. And most black women want you to be just as culturally small as they are, well I'm not. So open to dating anyone who I find attractive, regardless.
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