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Post by Admin on Jan 3, 2023 20:33:56 GMT
2,400 dollars..seems like a lot, but these days, in some places, that's barely one months rent, but if had, hmm?
1. Some type of schooling, certification course?
2. Invest in digital equipment to create music?
3. Save? (boring)
4. Down payment on newer used vehicle?
5. Pay off some back debt (boring, in life you waste your time going backwards, regardless what Dave Ramsey says)
6. More radio air time?
7. More podcast time, exposure?
8. Lottery tickets?
9. Update wardrobe, by some cool newer clothes?
10. Private pilot lessons? (waste of money now, as I'm never going to be a pilot)
11. Buy a scooter? (Where I live the thing would probably get stolen unless dragged inside every night)
12. Buy some new video recording equipment and create some movie?
Just not sure, but you only get one chance, once chance to spend money and get it right, and if wrong, than it's all for not.
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Post by Admin on Jan 3, 2023 21:57:38 GMT
Or maybe I should just move, but where?
Every place is the same now, if apart of the working poor.
And even rural places are changing now do to fetanaly pouring over the boarder.
I mean you can now move to rural Nebraska and find just as many people addicted to drugs as in Detroit....if not more.
Actually fetanayl is not really a drug, it's a toxic poison that for whatever reason dealers lace drugs with, not sure why, I mean why, if a dealer, would you want to kill or poison your cliental?
Anyways, I'm not into any of that stuff, but nor do I want to move some place where others are...I just want peace, calm and quiet, who doesn't I guess.
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Post by Admin on Feb 8, 2023 2:00:50 GMT
Geese and Alligators
Geese or more loyal to each other than human couples are, go figure...
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Post by Admin on May 2, 2023 12:47:01 GMT
Seems where I stay, everyone has moved except me, do to rising rent.
These new owner of this place are sticklers when it comes to rent.
I've been here for about a decade, and only once did they want to see my income after signing original lease, but this new ownership group are sticklers, so many have moved out, I think I'm the last one in this 4 plex unit.
I'll find out over the next few days if I to will have to move out.
Moving is more stressful as you age.
Moving is fun when young, but as you age it's stressful, having to change addresses and all on your licenses.
Moving is more stressful also, when alone, cause there's no one to comfort you or re-assure you that things will be alright.
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Post by Admin on May 2, 2023 13:09:05 GMT
Anyways, regardless of how I feel right now, I have the whole day infront of me.
The hispanic maintanence crew is ripping apart the unit next to mine, as I guess they two have left, I'm like the last one left in this building....wow.
Seems if you live long enough, you'll notice that you'll see your own life or story being told in every single episode of the Twilight Zone.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2023 3:14:59 GMT
I think it's still Tuesday. They're the first person to want to hug me in years, years I tell you.
I've missed out on so much, over the years, so much love, been forced to drift into the realm of oddness, cause that's what you do when people close the doors on you.
To most, I'm dead, when people close doors on you it's the same as them wishing you dead.
Yet, I'm still here.
Not sure why, but I am.
We shall see what fate yet still has in store for me.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2023 3:16:49 GMT
Anyways, I'm just learning to enjoy my time off 'as is'...sure, I could earn more if willing to work more hours, but why?
In the end, you die when you die, whether have 5 million in the bank or 4 dollars, in the end you simply die when you die.
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Post by Admin on May 31, 2023 2:54:48 GMT
Deadware
I don't know, this nerdy movie is growing on me, the pace and nerdiness of it, I don't know, it just kind of grows on you if a horror movie geek like myself.
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Post by Admin on Jun 6, 2023 18:24:14 GMT
Motivation hard to come by now days.
I was going to buy a used Dodge Challenger this week, but would have to make high payments on it, and that just turned me the wrong way.
like 500 dollar plus payments on a used vehicle, nah.
But I guess that's pretty normal these days, but not for me it isn't.
If I can get payments down to 350 or less, than maybe, if it's a dream car.
But I'd actually rather get a used RV so can have perminant shelter, cause I doubt after this year, I'll be willing to waste/dump money into living in apartment or rental house anymore.
I mean 1400.00 or more or less, is just to much of my hard earned money going into nothing. I'm to old to be tossing away money like that into thin air.
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Post by Admin on Aug 2, 2023 3:44:32 GMT
Still barely Tuesday  Still barely Tuesday, trying to squeeze as much out of today as i can. Time is not my friend anymore, time eventually gobbles us all up. And I'm sober, have been, for the last week, good. After I post this, will take a late night nap, lay back, watch a korny scary movie, then when rested, sit back up and try to squeeze even more time out of today...for to me, it can be 3 am in the morning and I still consider that 'today'...tomorrow only arrives once I actually fall asleep and wake up when it's daylight. Anyways, it's been a long day, good. I love when days feel long, when I'm off from work, off tomorrow also, but then gotta hit it for 3 days in a row come Thursday, yuk and super yuk. So long Tuesday the 1st of 2023, cause once gone, you're never coming back...and that's the fact ack.
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Post by Admin on Aug 22, 2023 17:02:24 GMT
I feel crummy today like nothing will ever work out.
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Post by Admin on Aug 22, 2023 17:16:51 GMT
I feel a overwhelming sense of doom and dread right now, probably cause I drank beer last night, and just feeling the after effects, or it could be other things as well...my own future...who knows.
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Post by Admin on Aug 22, 2023 19:16:29 GMT
Here's what I've learned in life, your good deeds don't matter, if doing those deeds for a weasel.
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Post by Admin on Oct 31, 2023 14:10:56 GMT
It's Halloween.The world is becoming a uglier place to me, or I should say my own personally reality is what's becoming uglier to me, as such, I'm gonna have to make a attitude shift. Yep, when things become unbearable to 'you', that's when you have to shift your attitude in order to deal with it. Sometimes you may even have to go into 'robot mode'...  What that means is setting aside emotions, and just doing what 'you' have to do to get through whatever season you're going through. I'm going to have to go into robot mode for a while, and put feelings aside, feelings of fear, anxioty, ect. I've got to go into robot mode, or Spock/Vulcan mode, to get through this period.
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Post by Admin on Nov 21, 2023 19:20:04 GMT
It's Tuesday, and well...  It's Tuesday, and well, I'm here...that seems to be the pattern as of late, I'm just here. And to make it worse, I have to work tomorrow.
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