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Post by Admin on Nov 20, 2022 3:20:42 GMT
It's Saturday, but had to work earlier, glad that period of the day is over, but it's so late, not much I can do now. I think I now want a newer, cooler, sports car, I haven't owned a car I thought was cool in over a decade, but getting older now, and the window of even caring about such things is closing. I'm a Dodge Challenger type, even if used, I think I want want, not a Charger, but a Challenger, no other sports car really appeals to me. The new Toyota Supra is hot!  Nice car, saw a guy driving one today, but sadly it's out of my credit and price range. I drove in one in the 90's, and remember how quick and powerful it was even back then. I wasn't sure if they were still making them. But ye, I need a new ride here soon, or I should say want a newer ride here soon, we shall see. |
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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2022 14:57:22 GMT
Yep, it's Saturday, the last day of 2022.
I'm off, off for a few days.
And I just cancelled a show i was doing, why? Cause I just need a break, and the chemistry at that place has changed, I haven't, but the chemistry at that place did, anyways that's for another post elsewhere.
What will be my new directives going forward in 2023?
I don't know, to survive, I guess, to survive mentally and physically by just trying to stay upbeat, positive and focused on items, projects, dreams and beliefs that I feel can still make my life down here on earth worth something to me.
We shall see.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2023 2:57:15 GMT
Boring, calm, Saturday night.
I worked earlier though, so mind is kind of 'shot'.
That whole post work vibe, where your mind is empty after performing hours of mindless labor.
All your genius thoughts come to you while at work, and your energy is peeked, but then by the time you get off and home, your mind is mush.
Oh well, now I'm off, and eating some Ramon noodles, how sophisticated.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2023 3:03:25 GMT
Was going to drink some beer, even bought some one the way home, but then had like a few sips, and was like 'nah, there's nothing to celebrate', so why torture my body.
I fitter than I deserve to be, cause I do workout, not like an athlete, but I workout enough to still be pretty limber.
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Post by Admin on Jan 29, 2023 13:37:01 GMT
I think after a while, mindless labor jobs just age you, drain you of your health, cause when I get done working 3 long days of my job, I feel totally deshuvled for like half a day afterwards.
More specifically, long mindless hours of driving a big rig.
But I think it's a individual thing, cause I use to love it.
I think it's all about keeping the mind stimulated, regardless of what you do to bring home the bacon.
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Post by Admin on Feb 26, 2023 2:37:57 GMT
I had to work today, lots of driving, as usual. Well of course, when at work, and can't do what you really want to do, you fantasize about doing it....but then when finally off, you're just to tired to do anything. I was planning on having some beers and writing for show. I bought the beer on the way home, but then once home, just didn't feel like drinking...why? Cause I looked really good and fit to myself today...and even though no one else may of appreciated my fitness and looks, I did, and so why would I want to tarnish that by drinking beer tonight. Nights still relatively young, but I think I'll pass on beer tonight, it's really not good to drink after a long day of work anyways. As of now watching some long odd weird episode of Columbo, that odd detective show.  |
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Post by Admin on Mar 26, 2023 1:52:38 GMT
Just a very plain dull post work Saturday night.
I'm like the only one in this building, I think, people keep moving out as rent goes up.
The old lady beneath me left last week and had mice in their place that scattered into my place, so been dealing with that the last few days.
Plus my lease expires here soon, haven't re-signed yet, and that's been stressful as well, don't even know if I still qualify to live here in that rent has gone up so much since I first signed original lease.
Moving is just stressful, or the idea of, you get so use to one place, the peace, everything is how you want it, but if move, you have no idea how new place will be.
And unless rich, you're more likely going to have to get some place in the hood, or that borderlines the hood/working class community.
Life gets scarier as you age, and are alone, and not rich.
The older you get, the less people like you, the less society wants you around, your value just begins to go away.
The only time people tolerate you when old is if you're loaded with money.
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Post by Admin on Mar 26, 2023 1:53:56 GMT
Can't tell if I'm hungry or just lonely.
I think most of the time we eat out of loneliness.
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Post by Admin on Mar 26, 2023 1:56:11 GMT
I've got beer in the place, but there's nothing to celebrate.
I gotta make some important decisions over the next few weeks, or week.
Important to me anyways....life disrupting type of decisions.
Anyways, until then, Ill just enjoy the tranquility of 'now'.
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Post by Admin on Jul 1, 2023 14:25:12 GMT
Going to have to get dressed and go to the store today, soon....not for beer, not for food, but cause I'm running out of bottled water.
I've been drinking more water as of late.
I notice water keeps the joints lubricated, especially if you drink.
When don't drink a lot of water, as you age, you body will feel like a rusty hinge.
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Post by Admin on Jul 1, 2023 14:27:46 GMT
I also need some 'chew' tobacco....yes, I chew, a trait most would never expect of me, have for years.
If I had chew and water in place, I'd have no reason to leave apt today.
I keep thinking today's the 4th of July for some reason....and or that it's Sunday.
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Post by Admin on Jul 22, 2023 17:52:17 GMT
OK, now what, it's Saturday and I'm bored and unmotivated already.
If I were drinking or drunk, I wouldn't care, but I'm sober, as such it's not as easy to escape into sillyness.
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Post by Admin on Jul 29, 2023 19:11:36 GMT
It's Saturday, again It's Saturday, again. I was in pain, have been in pain, the last few days, joint pain do to inflammation which I read is caused by infection, but I declared war on that pain last night. I'm herbing up, as in garlic, onion tea, and other grocery store bought natural herb stuff. And I'm not going to be drinking, which weakens your immune system, which allows for infections to begin with. And lots of water, fruit, ect, red beets, ect. I just can't afford to not be healthy right now, not where I need to be in life yet, so can't afford to get sick, not yet. That aside, I'm just working off of the 'to do list' today, boring as hell type of stuff, but I'm off for a few days so may as well knock out the boring stuff now.
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Post by Admin on Jul 29, 2023 19:32:38 GMT
Sometimes you gotta take care of all the little things in your life in order to be able to focus on the bigger things in your life with clarity.
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Post by Admin on Aug 6, 2023 1:17:43 GMT
Anyways, home now, if you want to call it that, off work now, off for a few days, and now time to relax.
Always takes a few hours to shed off the work day residue.
I'm not drinking at the moment, so will have to shed it off naturally....more fun doing so with beer, but nah, I'm trying to stop that habit.
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