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Post by Admin on Apr 11, 2024 0:43:16 GMT
Film School/course/academy Film, movie, set production, storyboards, screenplays, ect, will be a big part of my life over the next few months, 6 months to b exact, so may as well create a section just for that.
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Post by Admin on Apr 11, 2024 0:49:06 GMT
I've never done anything like this before, so not sure how to feel about it.
When drunk all the time, sure, you can dream, complain, wonder about stuff, fantasize about this and that, but when sober, and actually able to 'do it', then what?
I mean there's a lot of things I think I want to do when I'm drunk, but when sober, do I still have the same passion for it?
Not only that, but I'm older now, I mean when a younger male, lust for others is what drives you every move, but when older, that lust begins to fade, and so now you have to have other reasons for wanting to be around others. Do I have another reason?
I don't know, other than trying to prove something to myself, do I have a reason for wanting to work in the film industry?
Excitement?, which is something my blue collar jobs all lack.
Recognition?
I mean maybe what I'm paying for is to finally 'matter' again, and to form relationships again, with real people, something I haven't had in forever.
I don't know, we'll see.
I could of just taken what money I had and just bought some land, a RV and just lived a hermit of a life, but to live you must have purpose, and relationships with others (I do believe) give us that purpose, that drive.
Anyways, we shall see, stay tuned cause lots more to follow.
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Post by Admin on Apr 30, 2024 5:53:09 GMT
Should be studying now, but mind is tired.
Burning mind celeries will make you feel just as tired of burning red muscle calories.
And besides, right now I have to watch 'The GodFather', then write about it, write about the protagonist and antagonist, and ect.
Anyways, mind is wore out, time to lay back and fade off.
Had a scary zombie dream the other night, these zombies were extra pale and just freaky.
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