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Post by Admin on Dec 13, 2020 16:33:08 GMT
Have 2 days to get much done do to intense work schedule
Have 2 days to get a lot done do to intense work schedule, which I do not like, and won't do for long, only willing to be worked like a nobody until after holiday season.
Working long hours just kills my spirit, maybe cause on my job I pretty much work alone.
And sit for long periods of time, it's not healthy, being alone isn't healthy, I've never ever been to jail or prison, but remember watching documentaries about people in solitary confinement and the negative effect it had on them, even hardcore criminals would 'crack' if left alone for to long.
And even hardcore prisoners often referred being let back in with the 'general population', than to remain in isolation, and mind you in prison the general population aren't exactly angels.
But when given chance of being alone in isolation, or being allowed to interact with others, it amazed me how even in prison, people would rather be around other hardcore prisoners and risk harm, than to remain locked up in isolation alone.
Now if prisoners, who are tougher and more macho than most of us, can't even take isolation for long periods, than how does social isolation effect those who are 'good'?
Then add 'Covid' bs to that, and from what I read, hear on the 'news' is that suicides are going up, alcoholism going up, drug us going up and other bad behavior do to isolation.
Anyways, off for a few days, natural inclination is to just sit and sleep, but haven't go that luxury, so will make a long 'to do list', just to keep self busy and moving for my own mental sake.
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Post by Admin on Dec 13, 2020 16:37:33 GMT
Also, not sure what 'end game' is anymore, buy a few acres of land?, buy a used Motorhome so that can live cheap, and only have to work part-time going forward?
Buy a used cool sports car?
I don't know, I'm older now, and having a spare 5 gran means differently now than it did when say 25.
5 gran at age 25 meant I, or one was rich, get a car, ye!
Or go to the club and show off..ye!
Or go find a woman to spend all the money on to impress her, ye!
Or go buy a bunch of new clothes to look cool in, ye!
But when older and realize how hard money is to come by it's like 'no' to all of the above.
Instead more inclined to bury it in the mattress.
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Post by Admin on Dec 22, 2020 1:09:30 GMT
Laying here 'The Haunted' just for
marker' sake...
Comments later, this just a 'mark'
The Haunting
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Post by Admin on Dec 24, 2020 0:02:05 GMT
Over all 2020 not a bad year for me
I actually worked less this year while getting paid, and doing OK, more so than any other year of memory, and no, no Gov money, I earn my money, but save a lot now also.
Plus tax returns help...I just save, so am able to weather bad times better than most.
And I've decided about 2 years ago to never work more than 4 days a week, ever.
Not trying to wear out my body for industry or any job, then get old or injured and have nothing left for self, nope.
So got lucky and found job where work 3 days a week, off 4, but lately do to holiday been working a bit more.
That's all I need, I'll gladly work 3 long days to be off for 4.
So ye, 2020 not the worst year for me at all, did lose a car though when tree fell on it, was still making payments on car but tree totaled car, so got some cash from that as well and no more payments.
Rent has gone up, but I've cut back on so many other areas that now finally able to save again.
I actually fear 2021 more so than 2020, cause with Trump gone, the economy will crash, and the poor and middle class will get more poor as Biden ushers in odd nation destroying policies.
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Post by Admin on Dec 24, 2020 0:10:30 GMT
Also, if something is annoying that a black guy does, I don't know why a white guy thinks he can do it and it won't be annoying, as in the 'boom boom' audio system in a vehicle..  The worst sound in the world to me is hearing someone 'bass out' in their vehicle while at home trying to relax, whether a white guy doing it or anyone else. But this white guy, where I stay, seems to think that cause they're white, that blaring is audio bass doesn't annoy others and isn't rude. Can't tell you how many times I've fantasized about running out there and just knifing his speakers, slicing them up, and then claiming mental illness or something. Just saying rude is rude regardless of ones color. In fact, most black guys where I stay aren't even into that whole loud base sound anymore, that died out with blacks during the late 90's. Only the most hood type of blacks do that now. But this white guy with long hair, I don't know who the heck they think they are or trying to be, I do know I feel like betting them up though whenever they 'bass out'... |
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2020 23:48:25 GMT
Getting to the point where starting to hate everything online.
emails, everything, pw resets, everything.
For one, the internet and all the crap that comes with it allows people you'd normally knock to the ground or punch in the face to seem 'bigger than they are'.
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2020 23:49:06 GMT
I actually make myself seem smaller on the internet, not larger.
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2020 23:52:01 GMT
Get sick of freagin passwords, get sick of systems deliberetely making it seem you forgot your pw when you know gdm well you didn't, but just their way of 'being noisy.
Again, the types if actually met in real life would stuff inside of a locker and destroy, but online they have the 'tech power'....but one day...hmm
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2020 23:53:56 GMT
Tired of 'Adsense' and other online add services 'google' ect earning billions off of our collective information, and not giving us a dime of those earnings.
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Post by Admin on Dec 27, 2020 23:55:45 GMT
Can't even talk to real people anymore at any tech firm, is how distant they are from the rest of us...so what I like doing is canceling service, and then watching them reach out to me for months, and showing them how it feels to be ignored.
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Post by Admin on Dec 28, 2020 0:02:50 GMT
They all watch you from your 'PC', so if have 'IP' vanishing type of service, they get all confused, noisy bastrds.
IT's all done by 'bots' though, that's the good news, for no one person has time to analyze billions of bits of information.
It's all done by 'bots'...
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Post by Admin on Jan 31, 2021 6:25:11 GMT
Work really tears me away from what or who I really am
Let's see, how can I put this.
Work, most jobs, are simply mindless repetitive labor, no deep thought really required, no input required, just manual labor that they probably with robots could do, whether driving a truck or being a cashier or garbage collection ect...a token job, paid just enough to not go broke type of jobs.
Well when I compare who, what, I really am before I start a 3 or 4 day cycle to how I feel after work cycle done, it's like two different people altogether.
It's like the work place totally robs me of well, 'me', or my soul, or the essence of my soul, my personality and more.
I think 12 + hours a day of just being reduced to base functuality will do that, I think it does it to many, just so happens I notice it more since a very perceptive type.
I think it's why so many in the blue collar world are so bland and without personality and have like given up on many things cause I think that environment robs people of who they really are.
Now we're told 'Work' is who you really are, but I don't think so.
Working on a farm for yourself, yes maybe, where you're in charge of the decision making, but working for another, doing manual labor just to pay rent, no, I don't think that's who we really are.
It's not who I am, and sad we spend bulk woke years of life doing just that, laboring and told if we labor just a little harder, in the end 'you to can own big white shiny castle on the hill.
Ye OK.
Is why I need so much more than just 2 days off in a row, for without at least 3 days off in a row, I believe one will always remain lost to self.
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Post by Admin on Feb 3, 2021 10:03:58 GMT
I feel like something is very 'off' with how the world, particularly the United States, is being ran right now
I wrote elsewhere that I have this hunch, feeling, that something is very 'off', or 'jaded' with what's going on behind the scenes, I feel like 'evil' is plotting behind the scenes and effecting peoples reasoning abilities, but not common people, rather it's effecting those in power.
I don't mind when people are insane and committed to mental institutions, but when the insane are the ones pulling the levers behind the scenes is when it's time to get worried, and sadly now days, people seem willing to over look ones insanity as long as they have enough wealth.
I feel like it's the insane now, who are running the Asylum known as Governments and corporations ect...but even more than that I feel as if even they are under some kind of central global control and all being told what to do and how to shape their societies.
Something just doesn't feel right here...we shall see.
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Post by Admin on Feb 15, 2021 18:36:54 GMT
Why can't Plumbers ever be like young and sexy, regardless of their gender?  Why can't plumbers ever be like young and sexy, as in 19-25 or so, and just look like models? Regardless of gender? Male/Female, don't matter to me, just wish for a change when plumber showed up they were young, sexy and looked more like a fit model. Instead usually get older chappy skinned type dudes with beards and who smell like cigar smoke. Oh well, the guy who showed up today did a good job.
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Post by Admin on Feb 16, 2021 20:21:41 GMT
When you're having a bad day, you watch other people having a worse day than you
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