It's a Family Affair, section here, my memories of...

Once Mother gone, I can never ever forgive you for seperating me from my love...I hate you...but don't take it personally, just avoid me...





Telling you in advance, I cannot ever forgive you, ever...why?...cause you were wrong and chose to believe in lies.

Avoid me, for your own well being...thanks.

The Devil keeps me young for a reason...hello





Hello Nephews...

Avoid me...

This song so reminds me of my deceased Uncle, back when Alpha black males forced to 'pimp' cause 'white society' would not accept them....long live you Uncle whatever..



I think like 400,000 old timer types died this last year do to covid...goood...and good riddens...hateful racist fks.

Young forever...fate will get ____

All I need to do is sit back and watch you _____.



All I got to do is watch..............................................................



You stole my life from me...unforgivable....hate you...just kidding.

American Restoration on 'Quest' channel



I like this show, it's a show ran by 'The Dad', with grown son close by as apprentice, and some other funny, slightly goofy type his sons age, and just other 'heartland' type older men type.

And what they do is 'restore' all sorts of items, it's a fun show to watch and produced well, and if not careful you can lose 3 hours just watching this show.

I like the show, but it also makes me a bit sad in that my current life totally lacks the family dynamic you see working out on this show, I haven't had that dynamic in decades actually.

The people on this show are the types I was raised around, believe it or not, just kind of what I call regular heartland types, but when younger probably intimidated by them more so than am now.

Family dynamic is so important, when that's broken up, nothing but chaos and disorder reigns or fills in the void.

Men need other men, in my opinion, and it's when females break up that dynamic between males, that things always begin to go south, and in the urban 'B' community, that's all you see, but sadly now it's spilled into suburban communities as well.

Guys need guys, guys help build a certain confidence when around other guys, particulalry when related, and many urban type females just don't get or understand that and instead use custody over their kids as a weapon against the Father.

I so wanted a large family when I was younger, still wouldn't mind having one if I were some millionaire and could afford it, but doubt it will ever happen.

So many destructive forces try to break up family dynamics, greed, religion, jealousy, hostilities, whispers and more...and in the end chaos reigns.

Where I stay now, these younger women never had a family, a Father, and so men are like alien to them, once they breed with man, man no longer in life, and so you have a bunch of females raising kids all alone or with other women, the way Elephants do in the wild.

And so then what happens, the male child ends up rebelling at the age of 11 or so, and the female child has no idea how to measure a good man and falls for the first gangsta thug type that impresses them, thus the cycle repeated over and over again.

And then these urban women who laid around while younger, have 2-5 kids by different men, then flood to church as if they're the victim, and suddenly 'Jesus' is the answer and men are baaaaaaad...you see this cycle over and over again.

Bottom line, if you're a decent man these days, good luck trying to find a woman who wants that.

But mainly if apart of the generic American culture, if apart of a more traditional sub culture with ethnic traditions still intact, you'll fair much better.

Tabit

Older brother, oh how I miss having someone older than you, stronger than you (at least physically) there to look out for you, and only a few, as a male, can really play that role, and that would be a father, a Brother or a Uncle...maybe a cousin also.

I do miss the relationship I use to have with my older brother 'Tabit'...have no idea where they are, what they're up to or if even still alive, for unlike others I do not 'snoop'.

Out of respect, I never snoop on anyone, never...I just figure if they don't tell me themselves, than I don't need to know nor do I want to.

I don't snoop, spy, pry, on anyone, ever.

As such everyone starts off perfect to me until I have up close and personal reasons to believe otherwise.
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When younger, this is the type of futuristic, at the time, fusion jazz my older brother would love to listen to, and share with his siblings.

My older brother, Tabit, was like Conan the Barbarian to me, when they'd get done working out, fresh from the gym, their muscles were so 'tight' and defined, and they seemed to 'Duke boys' to me..(All this before satanic religion and saucy women ruined them).

The older brother I miss is the pre religion, era or age.

I can only wonder what they're like now.

After religion they became 'mean', and very 'picky' and judgemental...still brutal, but in a biblical way or manner...and that's all that happens...people don't really change when they supposedly find 'god' or the gospel, rather they simply use 'god' or the gospel to magnify the ugliness already in them, or better yet to 'justify the ugliness already in them', only now they can comfort selves by pretending 'god' endorces their ugliness.

Older brother one of few people on planet I ever feared, long ago...now I really fear no one.

I think I hate 'religion' for stealing my older brother from me and filling their head with odd crap.

What should I say?

Dunce?

Stupid?

Lost?

Not sure what to say.