Age related depression and or topics

Age related depression and or topics

I know age related depression is kind of a broad term, cause that, to some, could apply to any age, I mean there's plenty of 17 year old's who probably think they're depressed do to their youth, maybe getting rejected by a college or rejected by a girlfriend.

And I'm sure there's even 5 year old's, who think they're depressed cause sent to bed without dinner do to acting up.

But that's not what I'm talking about, I'm specifically referring to 'older age' type of depression, for people getting up there.

Being depressed at 40 or 50 or 70, do to age related issues, is different than being depressed at 17, cause wasn't invited to the high school prom.

I mean depression is depression I suppose (why do I always complicate things in my own mind).

But I'm referring to older age related depression, maybe like lower energy, less enthusiasm towards everything, or a sense of doom and gloom that looms (that rhymed)

One example of this may be the fact that the older you get the less people you're able to relate to, socially, culturally and more.

Also, the older you get, those who inspired you when younger, they begin to fade, drop off, wither and die.

There's no more 'Uncle Ben' or 'Uncle Charlie', to set you aside and give you that talk.

Maybe no more 'Dad' to give you that tough love, as you age there's 'no more' of a lot of things, as well as seems weekly hearing how this childhood idle, that childhood idle celebrity has died, that song writer has passed, that actor you thought was invincible, gone, in the grave.

One of those actors for me was 'Burt Reynold's



I mean this guy was one of my favorite celebrity actors I can remember while growing up, I'm talking when I was under the age of 10, I always say him as this 'white' outlaw rebel always fighting against Southern injustice in movies like 'Grease lightening' (I think that was the title where he's running moonshine)
Burt Reynolds was like the outlaw to the outlaw south, and I remember being inspired by him as a kid, his characters in movies came off so confident, you could break his body but not his spirit, but finally his body broke...when he passed away a few years ago.

That's just one example though, a more recent is Eddie Van Halen, I mean my gosh, another one who was suppose to live forever do to their talent.

The older you get, the more you start looking back, is one reason why I created this blog forum, is mainly to look back, and not sure if that's good or bad, cause when we start looking back more than forward, does that mean in our minds we've gone as forward as humanly possible or as forwards as we believe our own personal circumstance will allow?

Who knows, nothings pure black or white when it comes to the human mind.

People blessed with large families and extended families don't even have time to think about all of this, they're to busy living, and giving, and being loved, to think about what those who have none of that dwell on.

If you have a spouse, kids, grandkids, cousins, Uncles, Aunts, grandparents, and more, and good friends, who keep your life charged with love and acceptance, than everything I just wrote above is like googly mook.

Well googly mook, no googly mook, what I write and share is still the reality for millions.

More to follow.

Believe it or not, I still get 'carded' from time to time when I buy alcohol (something I'm no longer doing), but when did a few weeks ago, youngster wanted to card me, boy did I ridicule them...but that aside, sure I may look very young to some on the outside, but on the inside I'm aging right along with everyone else.

Same issues, everything, creeping up for sure.

I think what depresses people as we age, is not so much our age, but thinking about what we didn't or couldn't accomplish, all the 'what if's' begin circulating through the mind.

That's what gets you, not so much your age, but the 'what if's'.

Like that one famous movie line 'I could of been a contender'...if only __________(fill in the blank), cause the 'if only', is a bit different for everyone.

It's the idea of only getting 20% out of your potential, when feel should of gotten 90-100% if only __________.

The if only's vary for all.

If only I had been born a different color or ethnicity

If only my spouse had stuck with me

If only I were born on the other side of those tracks.

If only I were born in that country, instead of mine

If only people had understood me

If only my family hadn't moved around so much when younger

If only I didn't get sick and ill

If only I hadn't been cut from that team

If only I didn't use drugs

If only I didn't marry that person

If only I didn't join that church

If only I had been born a different gender

If only people had found me to be sexier in my prime

If only I hadn't of moved to this area

If only my luck weren't so bad

If only God had really loved me like he did others

If only I had gotten better advice when younger

If only I had stayed in school and or College

If only I had not given up on that job or career path

If only I had been more forgiving towards others

If only I weren't so nice, and more cut throat, I'd be rich

One and on and on, some are able to maximize their talent in this world, and thus age gracefully and happy, others, for whatever reason couldn't catch a break when younger, and still can't when older, and so wrestle with the idea of getting older when inside feel still so much to do, to accomplish, but can't.

Much more to follow, this will be a long section as time allows.

You know, when you realize no one cares whether you live or die, prosper or fail, it actually makes you want to live even more.

I think people who take their own lives tend to do so cause they think others, or another will care, but when you know no one cares either way, you're like 'Why should I end anything, if to most I'm already gone'.

So you just get on with your life and bury them, the way they've buried you.

And now, because I do care about myself, even though no one else on the planet does, I'll try to force self to have a little fun..and today that means having a few beers...why?
Cause I feel sucky and have to work tomorrow, so why would I want to sit around feeling sucky all day when off from work?
If going to feel sucky, would rather feel sucky while at work.
Then After work, and going forward, is when I'll start my new phase of sobriety, for my own sake.

Sometimes sitting up in place sober can make me feel even worse.
You really have to guard your own mind, cause moods can slip in that are no good to your well being.

My mood has been odd lately, not sure if it's age related or what.
I'm in near the best shape of my life, yet I'm not happier than I was, say, 10 years ago.

I was happier 10 years ago, I drank more 10 years ago, and had more people in my life 10 years ago.
I think being around decent people just tends to make you happier.

I've been pretty socially isolated the last 3 years or so, and well, maybe that's effecting my mood?
And or I don't drink as much, and having to face reality more, and or have less things to hope for now that I'm older?
I don't know.

30 years ago, or so, or more, I remember thinking to self 'Will life have purpose without sex drive?'

I remember thinking that, cause to me, at the time, I couldn't imagine having a reason to get out of bed if not in a horney mood.
Well, now that's a regular thing and I'm still living.

I don't know, just thinking out loud, I mean Robert D Niro just got a 29 year old lady pregnant, and so did Al Pacino, and he's in his 80's.

So yes, older men are still enjoying whoopi with women younger than their own daughters, or even great grand daughters...that's weird.

How will that family line look?

When your that rich and famous, I guess there's just no shame.

Right now, it's as if my current reality is devouring me.
I can't really say I'm depressed though, but rather maybe frustrated that it just seems everything in my life has come to a stale mate.
I just ended a long running show I was doing on the radio, that I personally sponsored, and now the show is over and so I have a gob of time on my hands and nothing to do.
That show was basically like a full time job, an unpaid one, I mean I spent all my spare time producing that show, for like a year.
And was with two different stations, so this is the first time in about a year that I have nothing to do, and as such my life feels pretty empty right now.

I'm struggling to find new meaning, a new purpose, a new mission in life, and at my age thats so very important in order to keep moral up.