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Post by Admin on Oct 1, 2023 5:29:15 GMT
I'm totally annoyed by people who complain about being rich, they annoy the hell out of me, such types.
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Post by Admin on Oct 8, 2023 4:08:33 GMT
I can tell it's getting cooler now, cause now I only have one or two fans blowing on me, vs the 4 I had blowing on me a few weeks ago...where I'm at, cooler temperatures arrive in the mid to late fall.
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Post by Admin on Oct 27, 2023 4:17:01 GMT
It's like 12:10 am, I gotta work tomorrow, not sure where my mood is right now.
Not sure where I fit into anything anymore, lifes becoming more like a bad dream, but then after a while you just start accepting that it's a bad dream, as one by one, everyone's hopes and dreams begin to crumble, people die, get in car accidents, get sick, get old, get addicted to drugs, join gangs that hurt others.
But I'll take all of that over being a slave, back in 1781, picking cotton in the deep south....what a miserable life that must of been, with no end in site... I mean to have been born, and died a slave, and to have known nothing else, gross. It must of seemed like a forever system that would never end to those born in the middle of it all.
But I think it's the racism that came out of slavery that to me, was more of a sin than slavery itself. It's the belief system that whites developed towards those slaves, is where the true evil laid.
Anyways, so ye, I can pout all I want about my life, but on my worst day in 2023, compares nothing to having a bad day back in 1701, if a slave, and seen as nothing more than a human shovel.
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Post by Admin on Jan 26, 2024 12:52:41 GMT
Before work time. As I laid in bed before getting up, I laid there, 'just there'...meaning no happy emotions or thoughts at all.
It's like there was nothing in my mind, in my immediate future, that made me happy. Instead, just a long day of mundane blue collar job to look forward to, working while going broke in slow motion. But there was no joy, happiness, nothing. How did my life get this way? And or how can I fix it, or can I at my age?
Or is it just a early morning, just woke up thing?
But you know, the dreams I had before I woke up made me happy. No money involved, just people and relationships, and so maybe that's what my real life lacks, is people in it who have personalities, and are fun to be around.
Love, feeling loved, being around loving people, is what will make you happy, and that's what I'm realizing. But you can't force others to love you...lol.
Oh well, time to get ready for this job..
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Post by Admin on Mar 17, 2024 6:31:28 GMT
Don't lie about other people
It's hard for even a good person to overcome lies. But who's worse, the liar or those who chose to believe those lies?
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Post by Admin on Mar 22, 2024 6:14:29 GMT
Well, it's about time for bed. The next 3 months will be interesting for sure, heck, the next two weeks. I hope things go as I intend them to. Just tired of playing the 'game'.
I read now where even squatters, homeless squatters in New York, California, Oregon, can move into people homes, even Mansions, and if there for 30 days, cannot be kicked out and must be treated like tenants.
I mean what kind of madness is this? It's these odd, Ivy League, raised rich, elite White types on the left, who pass all these insane laws that effect every day people, and not them..(not yet anyways)
And black folks dumb enough to vote for politicians who say it's OK for someone to move into your vacant home, or spare home, or for sale home, for free, are dumb as a rock.
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Post by Admin on Mar 26, 2024 11:06:48 GMT
Since leaving last job, about 3 weeks ago, and since not drinking beer in about a week, my sleep pattern has really taken a turn for the weird. It's like I don't need as much sleep now (maybe cause not burning as many calories during the day or stressing out, since not employed at the moment)
I mean I go to sleep late, as in 2 am, then wake up at 5-7 am, and feel fully charged, but then usually go back to sleep around 9 am, and wake up again around 12-1 pm...odd. But hey, nothing on the schedule so I just roll with it.
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