Working class 'stiff', thoughts, regrets, reflections & more

The more time you have off and to 'self', the less you want to give your time and self back to 'the system'

The more time you have off, and to get to know 'self' again, the less of self and time you want to give back to system when system back and fully functioning again.

You think to yourself, 'Gee, been working all these years, decades, and still only a month or two away from nothing?'...

If the system cared about you, us, you wouldn't have to labor and toil until crippled, or until 60, and even 70's.
CEO sure don't, and other money manager upper level types, or City/County/State administrators who receive elaborate pensions and severance packages.

Many Government officials get more on the way out, in the form of severance pay, than most will earn in 2 decades of labor.

Why do they deserve that and you don't?

Talk radio donkeys like Rush or Hannity will tell you 'Err, cause they work harder'...BS...they don't work any harder than a cashier working a 10 hour shift at McDonalds.

They simply earn more cause they get paid more, cause the wealthy class take care of themselves.

And I'm sure, out of boredom, many scanning want adds and are shocked to see how low pay is now.

All these fancy titles loaded down with responsibilities, yet when get to pay section $14.50 an hour??

Again, that's 3rd world pay, right here in America, after monthly expenses.

We've all been conditioned to be OK with earning 3rd world pay, as long as have A/C or heat, and car to drive to and from work, we tell ourselves we're lucky.



But wont be telling yourself that when over the age of 50, and body begins to wear down, yet still only 2-3 checks away from nothing, after a life of laboring and being told laboring and working is the American way, and your duty.

When sick, can no longer earn, and about to lose it all, that whole 'it's your duty to labor for minimum wage' crap will be noise to you...

Remember this post when your arrive there.

What sucks is when you have to take your job home with you as in 'training', which I never seem to make time for until finally put on 'to do list' and it's randomly chosen and or when absolute deadline comes to get assignment done.

And when I say assignment I don't mean nothing fancy, but rather 'safety video' type stuff, just stuff you already no that just takes up your time.

I exercised doing last 'lesson', just to pass the time, that way I knocked out two boring tasks at the same time.

Yep, I'm still a working class stiff, I'm just not good at making money outside of laboring for it.
I'm not the type that's clever enough to earn money online, not patient enough to invest, or learn the stock market, to me detriment.

So I'm the type that seems all I can do is show up to work and labor, until can't labor anymore and then retire and go live under a bridge somewhere, or so it seems.

Thought today was Sunday

I thought today was Sunday since have to work tomorrow, even though not Sunday, I still have that yucky day before going back to work feeling.

It's been a while since I've been eager to return to any job after a while off.

When younger, going to work could be fun, for a variety of reasons.

Guys who get to work in environments where there's single women, they probably have more fun at work than guys or males that work in totally female absent blue collar enviroments, unless already married and all.

But all male, blue collar environments can be trugery if a single male looking for love, but then again it just depends.

Most males don't get separated from their home town communities like I did when left Pullman, where you know no one, and have to start from scratch.

Looking back I realize I took many situations and people totally for granted, cause always just felt life would be 'standard'.

There is nothing standard about life for me, not anymore, totally socially isolated, and have lost the drive to go out anywhere, especially with being able to communicate online now, and if feeling aroused, well, the internet has plenty of arousal relief sites to visit.

I don't know, feeling a bit gloomy right now, but only cause have to work tomorrow, but usually once morning arrives, get up, and at work, the feeling of gloom goes away, it's the before work time you feel most gloomy, at least I do.

I see why so many people are quiting their jobs now, and cashing in on Government benefits, many lie, and many made out like bandits during covid, people lied their tails off, some got millions, multiple millions, then fled the U.S.

Sometimes I wish I didn't have a conscious.

Anyways, just thought I'd chime it.

Another day, another way.

It's a wonderful feeling getting off work, and just settling in, even if have to hit it again the next day, it's still a great feeling being home after being 'out there'.

Is why it's so vital to have a 'home' or dwelling that is peaceful, otherwise you'd lose your mind if had no place to wind down after work.

End of lease notice



Lease renewel notice on door when I came home, lease expires in a few days, so can either

1. Month to month (very expensive)

2. 7 months

3. 12 months

12 months being the least expensive option.

But here's the thing, they just now left notice on door today, the 6th of May, and I have until the 10th to decide, that's not right.

I've been here a while, but it's like they change owners once a year or so, but usually they remind you of your lease options months in advance so you can prepare in case you want to move or explore other options.

Oh well, I'll probably renew, I mean where else am I going to go?

Rents going up everywhere, and at least where I stay here I have a view.



This view here, and that fact that the place is pretty quiet, is what keeps me here.

I mean sure, maybe I could find another place cheaper, but at what cost to my emotional state?

When you move, you're taking a lot of risks and assuming new place will be better, well unless it's a house you've staked out, you have no idea how new place will be.
Could have loud rude neighbors, bugs, barking dogs, could be near a train crossing, you just never know.

So ye, I'll probably renew lease again cause I just don't have many favorable other options right now.
And moving costs a lot of money, is emotionally draining (at least when you get older), deposits are needed.
It can cost 3000 dollars just to move now days, within same city, if moving out of state, heck, you'd need a bank loan.

Just got in, wow, what a long day, work just gobbles up all useful time of the day.

The days are so long that even if in good shape, you still are worn out.

Even athletes only play their games for 1 hour a day, other than baseball, or NASCAR.

But average people, who are not athletes, expected to hit it full steam every single day for years, while getting paid pennies.

Oh well, my griping isn't going to change a thing.

Rents going up, everythings going up, but I refuse to work longer hours for any of it, I'm no slave.

If I don't have the energy to perform normal working hours on a job, than it's time for me to go homeless, that's just how I see it.

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