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Post by Admin on Nov 10, 2023 5:29:38 GMT
I'm still healthy and fit cause I don't gorge and eat out all the time like so many other Americans do.
But sometimes when you visit others you have to go along, as to not seem rude.
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Post by Admin on Nov 13, 2023 14:48:24 GMT
Hard to believe my trip back to Pullman is already over, wow, yesterday I was there, and today, I'm back where I normally live/exist/work and function, which is many miles away across the nation in the SE....two totally different social worlds and societies.
I will have pics to share soon, and some videos of the experience.
I've changed a lot over the years, we all do.
For one, I don't like traveling anymore, at least not on airplanes.
When younger, i was lustful over people (horny or hornier), whereas now that side of me not there, people no longer fascinate me in that way, all I see now is fumbling imperfect flesh, when I look at others.
Everyone is twisted and messed up in the head, no matter how good they may look on the outside, everyone is pretty much a walking basket case, it's just some are better at containing it than others.
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The human race is sick, it's just some societies are better at hiding that sickness than others, do to Governmental constraints on those who'd wish to squash the rights of others. (Assuming you live in a society with a good fair government)
Anyways, I just flew back in last night, 3000 miles are so, 2 flights, so I need to unpack, and just sort stuff out, and step back into the hell that I left of my own making, which took years to create.
But I had to take this trip, if for no other reason, to give myself peace of mind in the future.
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Post by pull88 on Nov 14, 2023 6:40:29 GMT
Just flew back in town yesterday...don't have to work till Thursday, so, well, just kicking back and being lazy, about to watch a slasher movie.
Drank earlier, not sure why...I don't need booze anymore, I'm better, happier, without it.
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Post by Admin on Nov 14, 2023 15:37:35 GMT
Not sure the trip to WA helped me out, as far as feeling happier now, cause I don't, it's as if nothing changed, if anything I'm just more broke now than before I left.
I'm glad I went, the traveling part was a pain, flying, now days, just sucks for me.
Glad when there, could help the only one left in this world who actually cares about me and sees value in me still, but I just wish I could of done so much more.
Oh well...now time to get back to my sorry life here where I live and stay.
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Post by Admin on Nov 14, 2023 18:43:36 GMT
The only way to break through lies is to see people face to face, when you do that, everyone or person, who controlled others by lying about you, well, they begin to look really stupid.
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Post by Admin on Nov 16, 2023 0:03:55 GMT
I'm tired, and I think I've seen enough  I'm tired, and I think I've seen enough. Do things get better or worst going forward? Who the heck knows...
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Post by Admin on Nov 17, 2023 4:42:26 GMT
My mother showed me, demonstrated to me, that even if you think you lost on scratch off lottery ticket, scan it anyways, cause it could still be a winner.
The scanner never lies, and maybe the state does that on purpose so that winners don't cash in winning tickets.
Cause I was about to toss out like a few tickets I thought were losers, and sure enough, over 100 dollars I won, but didn't even detect it on the ticket...hmm.
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Post by Admin on Nov 20, 2023 5:18:29 GMT
I think I'm going to get on TikTok, I really do think I could 'blow up' there, as in lots of followers and whatever, that way I could sell book or books I'm writing.
So what if China spies, life is short, so what...heck, I have no secrets that any one cares about.
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Post by Admin on Nov 28, 2023 3:42:10 GMT
My inspiration always seems to come when I'm away from my place/home, but when actually home, seems all I do is sit, drink, and mope.  |
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Post by Admin on Nov 28, 2023 3:43:46 GMT
For me, I think all there is to enjoy anymore in life is 'now', the moment, but beyond that, not sure.
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Post by Admin on Dec 5, 2023 4:37:21 GMT
I really don't trust nothing online anymore, not texting either, just seems everything can be manipulated now.
Those in charge can intercept your communications and twist stuff up, lie about you, ect.
To me, don't believe nothing about another unless they tell it to you themself.
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Post by Admin on Dec 6, 2023 13:41:28 GMT
Saw a picture of myself with shorter hair, a few years ago, and you know what, I think I looked better with shorter hair than with long hair....so why don't I just cut my hair?
I don't know, I'm older now, and well, long hair, to me, is a sign of vitality, and once hair is gone, it isn't coming back.
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Post by Admin on Dec 11, 2023 17:25:26 GMT
I haven't a single friend in this whole world, out of billions of people, I haven't got a single friend.
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Post by Admin on Dec 14, 2023 12:53:35 GMT
Lately, my life is taking on a more serious, dull tone, as I really have to start contemplating my own future.
I feel like the game of being carefree is just about over.
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Post by Admin on Dec 24, 2023 21:10:57 GMT
It's Sunday, but I've pretty much been laying around in bed all day, _____ with self in a kind of role playing type of way, I suppose...
That aside, it's been a slumpy day for me, haven't even gotten dressed, and tomorrow is X-mas day, wow.
I'll spend it alone, as I always do, but probably should make trip to store to at least buy some meat, and or maybe beer, so that don't have to venture out tomorrow.
Speaking of beer, I've been sober all day, it actually feels good, I feel healthier than I have in weeks, so why would I blow that by boozing?
When I do drink, I drink alone, at home alone, which can be rather fun actually.
When single like me, you learn to just have fun with yourself.
Years ago, I'd go out to a certain night club or 4 plex type of place, kind of miss it, gave me a place to just go socialize.
But then it changed, seems everything good and decent changes, new people come in, bring in divisive attitudes and biases, ect.
I don't go out anymore, just haven't been in the spirit to, in years.
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Lately though, I've just been bumming over my future, probably way to much, I don't feel I have a meaningful future anymore, yet I'm still relatively healthy...what am I going to do with the rest of my life, when the cost of living just won't leave you alone?
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