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Post by Admin on Jun 7, 2023 12:29:50 GMT
I'm on a sobriety binge...no one every puts it like that.
That means I'm not drinking, as of late.
Not bragging, cause all it takes is one stray mood or thought, and here comes the beer, but hopefully not.
I like being sober, I have more energy, and I don't act as foolish or make foolish sudden decisions.
I wake up feeling fresh, instead of drained and strained.
And I don't feel so depressed....but at times do feel more irritated.
When sober, and have energy, yes, sometimes things can irritate you more.
That aside, it's a new day, I'm still here, and so now what?
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Post by Admin on Jun 8, 2023 4:15:02 GMT
Going forward, I hate alcohol, now that I see how damaging it has been to my life.
I'm lucky in that I'm in near perfect health for my age, but it's damaged me in other ways, as in decision making blunders.
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Post by Admin on Jun 8, 2023 4:18:00 GMT
I have a very lovely body, and I'm tired of abusing it, from here forth, I declare war on alcohol 
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Post by Admin on Jun 9, 2023 1:54:55 GMT
Yep, I'm ready to turn the chapter on drinking.
All drinking has done is make me a reckless decision maker when and while drunk.
I used to never drink, for the earlier part of my adulthood, but then, I think the loneliness just kind of lead me to the bottle or can.
But now, I'm ready to stop drinking for good, there's nothing really to celebrate anymore anyways.
Going forward, I need for my mind to be solid.
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Post by Admin on Jul 12, 2023 2:34:58 GMT
I was drinking a few beers earlier, until some ghetto B dude got loud, outside, below my place, and banged on someone door, and well, that just totally ruined my drinking mood, as reality hit me in the face.
And I'm glad it did, cause I don't need to be drinking as much anymore, beer that it.
I rarely drink hard liquor anymore.
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Post by Admin on Jul 17, 2023 20:24:21 GMT
I had to much to drink last night, then got on phone, then did what I usually do when drunk, drinking and talking.
But better to drink and get drunk while talking on the phone, than to drink and get drunk out there on the streets, and that's for dern sure.
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Post by Admin on Jul 22, 2023 22:50:52 GMT
I have to know who I am outside of alcohol.
I mean while still healthy, I still have a chance to 'self correct'.
If unhealthy and dying, than I doubt I'd care....but as long as healthy, my life, my outlook, is repairable.
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Post by Admin on Jul 22, 2023 22:54:13 GMT
Alcohol is weird.
I thought i was cutting back, but really I wasn't in that sure, I'd go 3-4 days without a drink, do to work, but then I'd make up for it by binge drinking at home, and acting a fool....that's almost worse than ust having 1-2 beers a day and keeping your cool about you.
But as I age, and have to make important decisions to myself soon, I need to know who I am, again, and what I really want out of life anymore, and I can only do that if dry and sober, but if always making decisions when drinking or drunk, well, no telling where that road would lead me.
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Post by Admin on Jul 31, 2023 23:30:37 GMT
When you stop drinking, the first week can be scary, cause you're learning how to deal with a very ugly world/reality again.
But the good thing about not drinking is something called 'perspective' comes back into place or play.
In other words, when depend on booze to balance your emotions, you end up being paranoid after a while, always feel like someone is out to get you and all.
But when sober, you once again get proper perspective back, and reasoning ability, assuming you were reasonable before started drinking..lol.
But ye, that first week can be difficult when you first stop drinking.
I mean even only drinking 3 nights a week, can have more of an effect on you than most think or realize.
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Post by Admin on Aug 1, 2023 0:04:19 GMT
Also, when drunk or drinking, you can say, express, or state a lot of 'nutty things', so then when sober, you wait for your emotions to settle to see if you really meant what you expressed when were drunk.
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Post by Admin on Aug 7, 2023 8:17:51 GMT
Today I drank water like it was beer...lol
11 plus days without one.
Body feels decent.
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Post by Admin on Aug 7, 2023 8:18:48 GMT
Now that I'm sober though, oddly enough I don't want to talk to anyone over the phone, and I feel much more relaxed and at ease, and don't mind being alone.
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Post by Admin on Aug 14, 2023 11:10:04 GMT
Boy I tell you what, don't drink beer if you're already a bit depressed, cause alcohol will magnify your depression.
I drank a few nights ago, and wow, well, I'm still trying to recover my mood.
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Post by Admin on Aug 14, 2023 11:12:48 GMT
One thing about boozing though
One thing I'll say about boozing, is that in the past it gave me the confidence to go out and meet others, to interact with others, which did totally help hide or cure my lonliness.
When I don't drink, well, I really have no reason to just go 'out there' and talk to strangers, so to speak.
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Post by Admin on Aug 21, 2023 3:52:21 GMT
I really got carried away yesterday while drinking beer and drunk.
Said things over the phone, texted stuff.
I do kind of regret it now, cause even though it was me, yet it wasn't.
And I paid for it today by having like a mega hang over.
As you age, hangovers feel more like you've been poisoned or something.
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