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Post by Admin on Sept 5, 2023 14:43:35 GMT
I wonder if I act insane when drunk?
I guess the question is, who doesn't act insane when drunk?
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Post by Admin on Sept 17, 2023 15:44:56 GMT
If I can resist the urge to want to drink beer today, I think I may be able to reach a weight I haven't been at for years, maybe a decade.
But the need to drink in more mental now, than physical.
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Post by Admin on Sept 17, 2023 18:56:17 GMT
To drink or not to drink, that is the question that's on the brink.
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Post by Admin on Sept 17, 2023 18:58:48 GMT
But if I drink today, I'll be useless tomorrow and want to sleep in late, and when do get up, won't feel like doing anything....hmm
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Post by Admin on Sept 18, 2023 18:05:35 GMT
I drank yesterday and into the night, and as usual, when drunk, ended up texting or saying things to others I wouldn't have if sober...
Not mean stuff, just passionate type of stuff or even silly type of stuff, but none the less, stuff that wouldn't have come out of me if sober.
Then the next day, sometimes people respond to what you said or texted when drunk, and you're no longer in that mental space, and sometimes I get embarrassed thinking 'my gosh, why did I express what I did last night'?
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Post by Admin on Sept 18, 2023 18:08:50 GMT
Even though I drank last night, I still got up and went walking in the park today, why not, just because you drink doesn't mean you have to be out of shape...
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Post by Admin on Sept 18, 2023 18:10:11 GMT
Also, seems the better shape I'm in, the more I want to drink..
I've gotta break that mindset.
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Post by Admin on Oct 22, 2023 16:18:58 GMT
Considering I haven't had a drink since late Wednesday, I'd expect to feel a bit peppier now.
But sometimes just day to day worry and stress can have the same effect on you as a hang-over from drinking.
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Post by Admin on Oct 22, 2023 17:03:41 GMT
Odd thing is though, is I feel like I'm in hell right now, and that the only immediate remedy to feeling like I'm in hell is by drinking a few, or a lot, of beers...but then once they wear off, I'll simply be in hell again..metaphorically speaking of course.
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Post by Admin on Oct 22, 2023 17:05:04 GMT
sobriety will help you navigate your way out of hell, long term. Drinking simply creates a temporary force field from the hell you're in.
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Post by Admin on Oct 23, 2023 8:19:06 GMT
I sometimes really do hate my behavior when I'm drunk  I don't always hate my behavior (notice I didn't say self), but ye, I don't always hate my behavior, I just usually end up hating my behavior when drunk, then I sober up and realize what a fool I made of myself when drunk. Sometimes I wish I lived in a state where 'weed' was legal, or had a job that didn't drug test, cause wow, I wonder how goofy I'd be to self if high or stoned?, I'd have fun, that's for sure. Anyways, it's still dark out, and I still don't have a life worth bragging, let alone talking about. I'm just here taking up space. And like most, I just figured the universe evolved around me, my wants, and my desires, oh how utterly wrong I was...oh well.
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Post by Admin on Nov 20, 2023 5:16:37 GMT
I got drunk today, while at home, and it pretty much just felt like crap.
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Post by Admin on Dec 9, 2023 13:32:16 GMT
I often create portrait abstract art of myself, when drunk, and then when sober I'm like 'what the hell is that'?
Makes sense, in that a lot of famous bands wrote some of their greatest hits when on acid.
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Post by Admin on Dec 24, 2023 21:16:16 GMT
Been sober all day, I wonder how much longer I can role like this?
This is the lonliest time of the year for many, me being one of them, and usually drinking helps us to escape.
But drinking is not the answer, never is, at least when using it to cure something.
If I drink, I'll just feel worse about myself tomorrow.
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Post by Admin on Dec 24, 2023 21:18:05 GMT
I have nothing to celebrate, no one to celebrate with, and my body needs to heal, so why should I drink?
My enemies, those who invent reasons not to like me, want me dead, have wanted me dead for decades, drinking just helps facilitate that for them.
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