Sobriety and the challenges of

Was really surprised to see that there wasn't already such a themed section on here already, oh well, now there is, and this is it, the ups and downs of sobriety.
Drinking at 22 certainly isn't the same as drinking at 52 or 62, habits must change or else.

Holding my own so far this holiday



So far holding my own, and not indulging in alcohol, and I'm glad, cause body, gut, needs a long break from drinking.

Also, if drunk during holidays you end up going on emotional rants, and calling people you have no business calling and making a fool out of yourself and just feeding into their resentment of you already, but while drunk one doesn't care and is seen more as a release.

Well, I don't want to do that this holiday season, I don't want to, while drunk, call anyone I wouldn't call if sober.

Yes being sober can be a bit boring, sometimes a lot boring, no where to hide your emotions, you feel all the body pain and aches you have, while drunk all or most pain is numbed.

I just have no reason to get drunk and smashed this holiday season, nothing or no one to celebrate, it's like destroying your body, health, and mind for nothing.

And others don't care, they really can't wait for you to 'go', so they can gloat to selves about how right they were, and cozy up to their fake god.

Not having it, not if I can help it anyways.
I mean no ones health lasts forever, even non drinkers, non smokers, non this and that, even they eventually get sick and die.

Anyways, it's the Holidays, big whoopty do.

Can one who has drank for such a long time be happy without drinking?

Well, yes, of course, if happy before drinking, then when stop drinking one usually returns to their natural happy state of being.

Let's take myself for example, I'm naturally a cheery upbeat person, so then the question is if one is already a cheery upbeat happy person, why the need to drink to begin with?

Here are some reasons in list form I'll suggest

1. One may think that by drinking, even though already naturally upbeat and cheerful, that drinking will make them even more upbeat and cheerful.

In reality, based on my own experience, what it does is make you more goofy and silly, not really happier, just sillier and more goofy.
But at the same time alcohol can enhance whatever mood you're already in, so if sad, can make you sadder, if mad, can and will make you madder and so forth.

But long term, it actually makes you less happy, it strips your confidence away to where one who drinks a lot feels they cannot shine to others unless they're drinking or drunk...and that's the trap many drinkers fall into is that they'll start feeling naked, emotionally naked, unless buzzed or drinking.
From celebrities to your common 9-5 type.

And then another trap drinkers often fall into is that once have proven to self that no longer need alcohol, a few weeks later will say to self

Wow, I feel so much better, and I've proven to self I'm no alcoholic, so I think I'll have a beer or drink to celebrate the fact that I don't need to drink'

That kind of logic will only make sense to a drinker or post drinker.

In that you heal, and then once healed feel brand new again, and so then whatever led you to drink in the first place comes back into play.

It could be loneliness, boredom, ect.

So when stop drinking, it's important to fill that hole as quickly as possible so don't fall back into it.

To drink or not to drink, that is the question



Ahh, to drink or not to drink?

Home alone, bored, not inspired, a few beers would at least give the illusion that being home alone and bored mattered.

It would be more fun to get stoned, but of course I cannot do that do to the nature of my job, they drug test and all, dammit.

But the minute I get a job that doesn't drug test, or I learn how to earn passive income, I'd love to get stoned on weed.

I mean even if I go to a State where weed is legal, I still couldn't smoke it, cause could still get hit with a random drug test.

I'd actually rather get stoned than drunk, not so much as a lingering effect as when you drink, I guess.

Oh well, on with the boring dull meaningless evening and night.

Either way going to die one day, somethings I think I'd rather die unhealthy than to die healthy.

Sometimes I just get a delight out of upsetting other peoples sensibilities.
It's almost like just punching them in the face, but in a non harmful cartoonish way.

You just learn after a while how fake, shallow and insecure everyone is.

And they relate to you based on their own internal hang ups, not yours.