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Post by Admin on Dec 25, 2020 3:15:26 GMT
All I do is get up, work, and walk a straight boring dull line.
But one of my neighbors experience hard times, and to ashamed to tell me about it, as if I care, in that as if I'd judge them negatively.
Again, it amazes me how others love or loved to judge me as being 'bad' or 'off kilter' when all the time it was them that was 'bad' or off kilter, and then when finally comes to preminition or full bloom, the truth that is, they cower away, rather than admit they were wrong.
Now with him it's harmless, but apply his same logic to others in positions of influence.
There's nothing worse than someone in position of influence with pride and a ego.
Be they a Mayor of a city, a football couch, a pilot who doesn't realize their own limitations, a Law Professor or even your spouse, doesn't matter their role to you, egos turn people into monsters.
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Post by Admin on Dec 25, 2020 3:18:21 GMT
Anyways, time for me to be a bit silly and have some internal fun, cause if I dwell on serious stuff for to long I'll grow old and stale like everyone else.
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Post by Admin on Dec 28, 2020 20:31:28 GMT
Not feeling 'Pullman' right now or past classmates, if comes in phases I think.
I wonder how many of them are just 'gone'...I do often think of 'Billy Smith' though, the fat black kid'.
And do remember in little league baseball, even though bill Smith fat as all could be, was feared on the pitchers mound, I mean when they wound up all that blubber, that ball came out like a rocket.
I think of a lot of my former classmates actually, not a week goes by that I don't...Greg J, Ricky S, Mike B (older classmate) Steve L, Wes Card, Dan Parkman, Shannon, Tie H, and his cute as hell sister, Ray D, Julian M, Liz M, and her whole half white half Indian family, AJ, her younger brother and on and on.
Wish could hold party for us all...cause I'm a born again rebel now.
But in a good way.
Pullman was both good and bad to me, it's good if stay in area, but bad if leave, at least if like me, a minority.
Cause in Pullman, if a minority, you're basically raised as if 'white', but when leave, others don't relate to you as such and so your life of isolation begins.
You're just caught in the middle somewhere...unless get lucky and meet 'a love' soon after.
My love was Kathy B, but her father messed that up..explained elsewhere on here.
The older I get, the less I understand the purpose of life, at least for me.
It makes no sense at all to me.
A, what should of been great life, de railed by bad decisions but for the right reasons.
And cursed with being sorounded by grave digger type friends^
It just makes no sense to me anymore.
I'm here, but not here.
Cause you're really only 'here' when matter to others, but since haven't mattered to others in years I'm not really here, yet physically still am.
Makes no sense to me.
So I guess I write about it so that when really not here anymore others can read about it and then pretend how if they had known me how cool they would of been.
This is nothing more than cave writings on a wall for others to figure out one day in the future.
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Post by Admin on Jan 2, 2021 14:44:01 GMT
Probably one of the least enjoyable Holidays in memory
I got more enjoyment out of Halloween this year than I did the past 2 weeks or Xmas and New Years eve.
I had to work New Years eve, it was very lonely, and then when got back to facility, the place closed down, everyone else went home, it was like showing up to an empty fortress or something.
Fiscally I'm 'stable', but that's about it, and even that's a toss up in these uncertain times.
One mishap, and you can lose it all, one bad swipe of credit or debit card, and you can lose it all to a scammer.
Some of us work all our lives to be years ahead of our bills, others already there, been there, years ahead of their bills decades ago, yet don't ever enjoy it in the 'now'.
People spend their whole lives worrying about retirenment wealth, then either never reach that age or when do to sick and laying up in the hospital to enjoy it, when they could of spawned so many other opportunities for others.
Oh well, I've go to go to the bathroom.
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Post by Admin on Jan 11, 2021 0:01:42 GMT
Shout out to a few Impossible to include everyone...especially like Kevin G, Dan K, Wes C, Julian M and others...even Liz M...or Travis A, from Albion, hundreds...with time, you all will be honored on here in one way shape or form...so much more to follow.
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Post by Admin on Jan 20, 2021 5:29:43 GMT
Will say this...your time is ___
When Mother gone, the one you seperated me from...golly gee rabbit.
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Post by Admin on Jan 20, 2021 5:31:01 GMT
I'm telling you in advance that I'm going to cut your head off..
laugh out loud..
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Post by Admin on Jan 20, 2021 5:35:45 GMT
My mean dad always told me 'boy, pick your battles carefully'...said the odd older dad.
Yes sir, I will...
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Post by Admin on Jan 20, 2021 5:37:45 GMT
The minute you contact me your 'dead' be it Lawyer or _____
Best advice...stay away.
Just kidding...of course..
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Post by Admin on Jan 20, 2021 5:45:44 GMT
I miss my old Pullman/Albion friend
Travis, Albion half Indian guy and sister who had cancer.
Shannon L..cute azz blonde.
The 'Parkmans'...they were a cool family.
back soon...wore out.
Dedra Moony...and younger hot sister and her hot bright feet,
Dawn B middle school stuff...Leslie...the gal that went out with me out of sympathy.
George Pratt, died at party, Bob Pratt...be blessed.
Im still here....can't wait
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Post by Admin on Jan 26, 2021 18:26:49 GMT
My problem is is that I'm content and not greedy
The reason why I'm not a billionaire and will never be one is cause I'm not greedy and I'm content.
What does money mean to a gerbil or to a cat or dog or donkey or Ape or cow?...nothing.
And I'm kind of like that, if I have food, the basics, than I'm content, and that's why I'll never be super rich, cause I'm just content with the basics.
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Post by Admin on Jan 26, 2021 18:38:05 GMT
I got in a phone arguement with this really nasty ugly older 1960's generation wealthy 'W' guy, like in their late 60's, but they have financial show on the radio...on air they act so nice, 'conservative', but when I cornered them on the phone about their 'Muslim bashing', it's like the devil in them, that old 1960s' ugly racist spirit came out of them, 'gdm' this and 'gdm' that ect...
They have show in the radio...I won't give name of show, not yet anyways...but their who identity wrapped around 'their money', that's the whole total sum of who they are.
I told them I could give a dm about their money, came into world with nothing will leave with even less.
I recorded part of their rant, very ugly..thinking about calling radio station their show airs on and sharing...but not sure yet.
Cause the man is 'small' to me, in real life I'd tower over them both intellectually and physically, they're a shrink wrapped insecure skunk to me, older rich racist 1960's type of W male who hates the fact that 'their world' is vanishing quickly.
They were picking on a 22 year old black female on his show, talking bad about this gal, her poetry and all, and just being all out nasty.
So I wanted to give them taste of their own medicine...and did...so much so they called the Sheriff, who then called me and politely asked me to 'stop harassing the guy'.
And so I did stop picking on his old W withered phony azz....I did stop.
I'm like no other he's ever encountered in his life, ever....cause I don't stop, if on my radar...but in this case, after calling all of his businesses and leaving messages of how hateful this guy was...I may have made my point.
Maybe, maybe not...we'll see.
I don't care how hateful they are, let them drown on, in, their own hate and love of money, but what I don't like is them deceiving listeners while on 'air', on a a.m. radio show.
Acting all godly while on air, then on the phone spilling out curse word after curse word, using gods name in vain and all, I found it sickening...
And you wonder why I question religion, and how people use it to fool others, then you dig deeper and discover their true nature.
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Post by Admin on Jan 26, 2021 19:15:06 GMT
I need to go grocery shopping I don't like grocery shopping anymore, it's not fun..and food costs so much now.
And not like when younger and always aroused and thought you'd meet someone...now those who walk past me in store may as well be zombies.
Like shopping around zombies...then see bill when done...40-50-60 dollars or more and you're like 'for this?'...but ye, I do need to go shopping in order to stay healthy.
Fruit, some veggies, maybe a few fun items...but can't live on air...and I've learned if don't eat good stuff, will end up spending money on junk food when at work, which costs even more when you add it up.
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Post by Admin on Feb 1, 2021 2:34:18 GMT
I miss the old America from like 1965-2010 This is the America I miss, so hard to explain, wasn't perfect, but people were just more real, had to be, before social media, had to have the personality to actually go out and meet others. Those days are so long gone, what happened? I'll tell you what happened...big tech, social media, greed and corporations. Not here though, here, I'm still 'me'...a loving soul, memory from the past.  Back when males, guys, weren't afraid to roller skate in public...boy how things have changed for the worse.
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Post by Admin on Feb 1, 2021 2:35:39 GMT
It's like it seems gays and women take over all trends started by men, and then 'sissify' or 'feminize' it, and then men to afraid to do what they were the ones who originally started...how sad.
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