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Post by Admin on Feb 3, 2021 16:36:38 GMT
Most laziest 4 days I've had off in years
I've been off for 4 days and I swear it's the most laziest 4 days I've had off in years.
I'm just not in a rush to go or get no where right now, not physically, I've been trying to get places all my life, maybe it's about time some places try finding me for a change.
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Post by Admin on Feb 8, 2021 4:38:12 GMT
What a Pullman/Albion area song...hmm
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Post by Admin on Feb 15, 2021 2:07:18 GMT
What a lovely song
Oh what a lovely song.
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Post by Admin on Feb 23, 2021 8:53:41 GMT
Drinking and boasting just don't go well together
I had a few beers today, just a few, but that's all it took for me to start 'boasting' about starting a radio show on local station, I even called the station and all, got some pricing quotes, and it isn't cheap.
Radio is very expensive, most don't realize that, it costs money to be on air, and unless you have sponsors than you're paying out of pocket.
But when drunk, who cares right, anything is possible, wrong.
What the heck was I thinking?!....I wasn't, I was a bit drunk or buzzed.
I'm not risking it all for a 30 minute weekly show, no way.
And not only that, not in the mood to 'save the world' anymore.
I can barely save myself....and my 'message' would be no better than anyone else's message.
When I drink, I really do need to like hide my phones from self.
There should be a law against drinking and talking on the phone..
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Post by Admin on Feb 27, 2021 7:23:42 GMT
Sometimes I think the 'devil', likes 'killing us' over time, instead of all at once.
As in one lost friend at a time, one broken relationship at a time, one failed dream/ambition at a time.
I think the 'devil' enjoys seeing us weep in slow motion over a lifetime, rather than to just show mercy and just obliterate 'you', one or us, in one moment.
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Post by Admin on Mar 20, 2021 20:31:07 GMT
Seems the criminal class runs everything now, even 'background' fake checks on the web...just typed in name on google, and of course the stuff that came up was 'fiction', but on purpose, why?
Cause they want you to freak out, and 'pay' them money to 'fix it', when it's not true to begin with!
It's a scam, but most to dense to realize that it's a scam...the only way can get official info on someone is through court documents, anything else is a scam!!
But at stage now where don't blame the scammers, rather I blame, one day will destroy, those who dumb enough to believe the scammers!!
Those are the people whom I despise, believe it or not, are those who you'd expect to have your back, to question stuff, but instead are the first to believe anything on the web about supposedly you, with 20,000 others matching your name.
It's these people who own me, and whom I cannot forgive, that is those close to you, who chose to believe lies, like they just want them to be true, even though not...
It's them I want.
Criminals will be criminals, that's just their nature, but what disguests me are those who you trusted in, who then turn around and either spread or believe 'myths' about you...
It's them who will pay a price one day for such treachory.
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Post by Admin on Mar 20, 2021 20:37:18 GMT
I mean F, I could type in the name of a holy nun from Catholic church, and according to these online identity scammers, she could be working for the Cartel!
Smart people get and understand that, stupid people actually believe that.
Sadly, seems I'm or was surrounded by future dead types.
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Post by Admin on Mar 20, 2021 20:38:48 GMT
Go ahead, you azz jerk, type in your own name on google, see what comes up, should I believe what I see and read about you???
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Post by Admin on Mar 20, 2021 20:40:01 GMT
When, if, I decide to make a 'history' for myself, believe me, won't have to go to google to some fake scam site to know.
Later.
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Post by Admin on Mar 20, 2021 20:43:02 GMT
Just waiting for that one slip up, that one person who spills the beans, maybe I should start offering a money, a reward for the 'devil'...funny how quick people 'flip' if offer them money, funny how quick loyalties crack, when offer money for someone to spill the beans.
Anyways, I have better things to do than to dwell on this stuff, much more life to be lived and enjoyed...time to eat.
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Post by Admin on Apr 6, 2021 2:28:19 GMT
No rest for those who stole my past...
You can no longer apologize...
Just kidding of course.
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Post by Admin on Apr 6, 2021 20:15:23 GMT
Strange phase of life right now
Going through strange phase of life right now.
It's hard to explain...
I thought I could here, but I really can't.
But like the older you get, the fewer years you have ahead of you, and so how do you carve out meaning?
Most try to leave a legacy I guess, politicians do that a lot, so they can be read about in history, or if have large intact families, I guess you start filling out wills, and your legacy comes from your relations with other family members as in kids, grandkids, ect, but what if have none of that?...then what?
What kind of legacy does a older single person try to leave behind?
And that's what maybe I struggle with right now, or does it even matter?
(The TV keeps distracting me)..
Maybe my legacy will be to just have lived life without troubling anyone, but is that enough?
Usually legacy's are built by how many people you help, and by doing so impressing yourself into their minds.
I don't know, mind is scattered right now, I have the TV on, something I rarely do anymore is watch TV, but today it's on, and keeps distracting me.
Will continue this later.
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Post by Admin on Apr 29, 2021 14:01:07 GMT
K-Mart in Lewiston, Idaho
When younger, way younger, Father would take us all down to Lewiston, ID, back when the old windy road was only way down into the valley, before they built the newer way down (only really old school people from that area will remember that)
But ye, there was a K-Mart in Lewiston, at a strip mall I guess, right there by Montgomery Wards store, ye, now we're talking really old school type shopping plazas, back when K mart had the blue light special, can still hear the sound of that bulb flashing...popcorn and more, shopping was and adventure back then, at least to me it was, as a kid it was, and so exciting, probably cause I wasn't the one spending money.
Looking back, we were a minority family smack dab in the middle of the heartland and treated wonderfully by those 'white people' whom current society calls racist...well looking back, they treated us, me, the family I had, better than urban 'black folks' do now...life is so strangely ironic and full of lessons.
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Post by Admin on May 10, 2021 13:58:25 GMT
One thing for sure, I'm tired of pumping passion into those who don't have it, they just deflate you over time.
I've gifted so much stuff out these last few months, just out of kindness, and get zero in return, I'll just start 'gifting' self, and that way I get 100% in return.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2021 11:07:49 GMT
I gotta get up and out today, how depressing, I mean just going to the bank can be totally a drab to me now, for what's new there?
Same ole people wobbling around, same ole odd stares by the tellers and so forth, nothing is new to me anymore with people, every day average people are boring and drab as hell to me now and do not inspire me at all.
Yet I walk in fit, tall, and stellar, and I'm the odd one.
'Gee, why are they so fit, tall, handsome and in shape?', people say to themselves.
I guess if I were short and sickly people would be more at ease.
Heaven to me would be if I were the only one left on the planet, or maybe 100 other people scattered throughout the world, as long as we didn't have to see each other or interact.
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