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Post by Admin on Jan 19, 2022 13:36:09 GMT
Also, tired of being lectured to by anyone, by the media or anyone else, I'm older enough now where I've earned the right to do the lecturing.
No one has helped me along, no one, so I don't need others who have never helped me, probably wished I were dead, to lecture me about anything.
I do the lecturing now.
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Post by Admin on Jan 23, 2022 5:39:44 GMT
Something feels really 'off' right now within me soul.
I just have a odd feeling about something, and I like to always 'note' when I have such feelings or hunches so that if later something really is 'off', I'll know I felt it first, that way you learn to pay attention to how you feel.
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Post by Admin on Jan 23, 2022 5:42:38 GMT
I've been trying to escape into cinema, movies, but not really working.
It's hard to find movies decent enough, anymore, that totally pull you into them.
Actors today just aren't compelling, it's like all the good actors from the past are aging out.
And with all these streaming movie channels, actors are spread so thin that you never see the same one twice anymore.
It's like the era of a hand full of big star actors is gone, now we seem to just have smaller generic ones.
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Post by Admin on Jan 25, 2022 6:30:12 GMT
Nothing like a flight to keep your heart racing
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Post by Admin on Jan 30, 2022 8:03:11 GMT
I feel my whole life I've been surrounded by baffoons.
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Post by Admin on Jan 30, 2022 8:04:08 GMT
Always cursed to be around those who burry talent, instead of elevating it.
I resent such types now like you wouldn't believe.
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Post by Admin on Jan 30, 2022 8:06:02 GMT
I matter zero to everyone, I have no value to none.
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Post by Admin on Jan 30, 2022 8:08:58 GMT
I would just give up, but the sad thing is, even giving up takes a lot of energy and effort.
If you give up, you still got to eat, still gotta stay warm at night or cool, depending on the weather, so even if one gives up, you'd still be tasked with taking care of self, which takes effort, even if out there on the streets.
I don't think life would be any less stressful even if gave up, probably more stressful actually.
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Post by Admin on Feb 4, 2022 4:24:25 GMT
Part 2, the landing
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Post by Admin on Feb 4, 2022 4:29:57 GMT
In a weird spot right now, considering a few nights ago I felt like medically, my life was about to end.
A medical scare, will explain later, either here or elsewhere.
Not out of the woods yet though, none of us really are, when you think of it.
I mean death, illness, sickness, a accident, will claim all of us sooner or later.
800,000 or so were claimed by covid this past year, from what I hear, 800,000!, yet if you're reading this than you're still here, and obviously I am.
800,000 people moved on, passed on, that's a lot of graves.
800,000 people who were once 15 and thought they'd live forever.
We all think we're going to live forever, either in the physical, when young, or in Heaven, as we age.
But we don't.
Religion says we do, I'd like to believe we do, I went through the whole religious 'Jesus saves' phase, I know all about it.
But much of it was simply a control game.
Anyways, here I sit, just pondering, pondering is something I'm good at, if could earn millions just to ponder about things, I'd be rich.
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Post by Admin on Feb 4, 2022 4:33:34 GMT
I mean like what spaces were these 800,000 people taking up?
Cause I like didn't know any of them personally, that just shows you how many people I do not know.
And I can't see a difference in traffic.
And that 800,000 is just covid related deaths, not including like homocides, care accidents, cancer, heart disease, diabetes, and other viruses out there that kill, I'm sure HIV still claims lives as well...suicides, war, and more.
Many people left this earth last year...yet I cannot tell.
Seems like 1 Billion people would have to die in one year, in order to actually notice a difference in traffic and crowds.
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Post by Admin on Feb 7, 2022 3:53:09 GMT
The Olympics  Was channel surfing and just happened to land on NBC channel, and after commercials ended it was, is, the Olympic figure skating event. And well, I kind of feel a bit sad for the athletes, and wish they were performing in front of a packed arena. They're so young, and not thinking about politics, but how they perform during the Olympics could change the rest of their lives. I wish them all well, the athletes that is.
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Post by Admin on Feb 15, 2022 5:05:06 GMT
Sometimes I don't like this forum board, or better yet, I feel less creative on here.
Other places I'm more artistically creative, but on here, I kind of walk the standard line of how people in Pullman probably use to rememeber me.
Although now that I'm older, I doubt very seriously anyone currently living in Pullman has the slightest Idea who I am, nor could care the less.
And I'm sure all my former classmates, and the few friends I had there, are to old to give a squat now as well, some are probably dead and gone.
That being said, not sure who I'm being shy for or feel I must impress anymore.
It's time for bed, will continue this later.
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Post by Admin on Mar 8, 2022 14:33:47 GMT
Sometimes you wake up feeling as if you've been in a heavy weight fight, when all you did was sleep.
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Post by Admin on Mar 8, 2022 14:40:48 GMT
Not impressed with this Neil Young guy at all, not sure what the hype has been over the years
I've never even heard of this song before.
And I think video does so well simply cause it has a lot of beautiful younger heartland looking white folks in it, like they're all in their prime.
The people in the video all look sexy, I'll give it that, but Neil Young himself? Nah, the guy just seems totally average to me.
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