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Post by Admin on May 10, 2022 5:38:09 GMT
A long journey alright
I wonder if Kathy B is even still alive...cause i sure am.
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Post by Admin on May 10, 2022 15:54:52 GMT
The America in this video is like the closest thing you can come to heaven on earth.
I do believe this is in the Cour Delane area of Idaho, an area I was raised up not far from, and yes, what a beautiful area it was back at the time.
I'm sure I'd of been a small kid though when this video was shot and created.
And as a kid or youth, I remember the Posey's, Mike Posey and his grandparents, had a cabin on that same lake, and would invite me to go with them there on occasion. And to this day, some of the best memories of my life were the trips I took with them there.
That area, back then, was so peaceful, so clean, and so crime free.
Back when America, at least in my opinion, really stood for something, mainly freedom.
Not sure what today's America stands for as today, sadly, government and big business, seem to have merged to really control and manipulate every aspect of our lives now. And politicians on both sides, can't seem to leave their ideologies out of legislative policies.
I really do miss the America in this video, I really miss that area, back then, back when law and order mattered, back when border security taken seriously, and back when not just anyone could cross the border and be let in.
The America in this video now just seems like a distant dream.
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Post by Admin on May 11, 2022 12:11:32 GMT
The sound of my cell phone beeping, making incoming call or texts sounds, when I turn it on, is the sound of a monster to me.
So I turned it right back off.
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Post by Admin on May 16, 2022 14:50:45 GMT
It's Monday, and I need to get dressed It's Monday and even though not working, I still need to get dressed, cause getting dressed puts me in a 'get something done' mindset. But if walk around place naked and nude all day, then I stay lazy all day. So, that being said, I'm going to get dressed, shave, hair, hat, and all of that, and get ready to try to mold the day in my favor.
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Post by Admin on May 16, 2022 18:59:43 GMT
I've been off for two days so far and haven't even left my place yet, just don't feel like going anywhere.
And seems certain issues don't arise until you do leave your place, accident, mechanical failure, crime, bad attitudes and more.
Was going to go retrieve some free mirrors until saw how utterly far they were, just not worth it to me right now, it would be like 45 miles or more round trip to get these mirrors, traffic, traffic lights, this that, nah.
I'll just stay inside cooled place, if I need something I'll order it.
I'm really in a lazy mood as of late.
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Post by Admin on May 17, 2022 18:12:14 GMT
I miss this thing, still have it, haven't flown it forever though cause lithium batteries were defective
Drones were all the crave about 6 years ago.
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Post by Admin on May 18, 2022 11:36:30 GMT
Feel really really calm right now, as if my insides have been cleaned out.
I feel 'blank', no anger, no rage, no nothing, as if I've just let go of it all, or all of 'it' has let go of me, and it's hard to be mad or sad, or show any emotions towards stuff you no longer have relations with.
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Post by Admin on May 25, 2022 5:54:25 GMT
At times I can't believe I'm still here, I really can't.
Not sure where fate is leading me anymore.
I'm alive, so I continue to think and write.
Nothing has really turned out like I imagined.
I live a steady unmeaningful life on the margin, and that's about it.
I wanted things to be different, but society just changed to fast for me, I think I'm still stuck in then 1970's era of how things are suppose to be.
I'm already dead to most, years ago, I'm sure I was already dead to them.
When people ignore you from your past, it means they want you dead, I know that's a ugly way of putting it but it's true.
How does that make me feel?
Just depends on what mood I'm in.
I do know life and people aren't what I thought they were (The bears are who we thought they were/NFL)...couldn't resist that.
I matter not to no one.
That would make most bitter or jaded, me, I've just learned to accept it.
It is what it is.
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Post by Admin on May 27, 2022 2:50:52 GMT
In a weird emotional spot right now
I'm not happy, not sad, I'm just 'here'.
I don't waste energy getting mad or upset anymore, it's a waste of energy.
My energy level has been a lot better since stopped drinking so much and since taking herbal teas and other 'Life Tree' stuff, but there's like no voltage behind that energy, no direction behind the energy I have.
That means I have a empty life, not loved, nor am I in love.
Life is about relationships, so without relationships things just seem bland.
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Post by Admin on May 31, 2022 23:49:49 GMT
As Is A Pullman, WA child or ghost. A Albion, WA child or ghost. Lewiston/Clarkston/Spokane/Cour Delane, ID child and or ghost. Ricky S Mike B Lance G Dan P Leo H Dan K Steve L Carlo F Julian M Todd K John W Tony C The La Plants The Emersons The Posey's The Stones Julie F Kathy B The Harpers Ted Bob M Jim A And the rest. I'm still here, and if I'm still here so are you. As Is.
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Post by Admin on May 31, 2022 23:59:53 GMT
Mike B Shannon L Melony Melody The Stephens Mr Gaymen/Shawn/your sister Joe (gas station dude in Albion, RIP) Kelly H (Red headed gal with freckles/Albion) Dedra Mooney, and your whole family Mr Mooney, the 'Fast times at Ridgemont high Principal we had) Mrs Melhart, my High school gym teacher, and your son Hall? What a totally nice guy and family you had. Billy S (Fat Albert) Ray D (Philly) David C (Fastest kid on the planet, while at Jefferson. Kevin G (Miss you pal, life was never the same when you moved away) Mike J (Chicago..you were there for me, don't explain) Mike M..one of the few taller than me..lol...love to hike they did (Pam) And I could go on, just popping names off of my memory..I miss them, they're my past. I never went to the prom, wish I could find special person to go with, and hold a prom for all those who just never went, never got invited, or were to socially awkward at the time to go even if were invited. Life is not over until it is, until then, live.
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Post by Admin on Jun 13, 2022 22:35:50 GMT
Just some misc photos with commentary
Have all these photos of various places and people, so may as well start sharing them.
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Post by Admin on Jun 14, 2022 21:05:45 GMT
Grasshoppers??
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2022 4:30:22 GMT
Why did I create this place and why do I even still come here?
It's where I feel the least creative actually, as if stuck in the past as a person 'I was', but not the person I've evolved into do to my particular life path.
I think I just come here for my own therapy, since there's no one else to talk about Pullman or the past with.
Why should I not think or write about stuff in my just cause there's no one to physically share it with?
Just like why should I stop living just cause others block me out of their existence?
Neither to both, and maybe I do both, continue to do both out of rebellion.
In the end, maybe it's I, those they forgot, who wants to get the last laugh, who knows.
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Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2022 5:06:29 GMT
Oh well, the weekends here now and I'm off, time to settle in, and shed the funk of work. Also, it's summer, when working how often do we, or I forget that. It's summer!
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